Gray Rainbow (Soramafu)

Poco

~Mafumafu's POV~

"I want to form a collaboration unit with you... So I can be and sing with you more and so that I can be sure you'll be happy. You know... You're really dear to me already even though we know each other for only two days. Or at least I know you only for two days.", he whispered next to me. I didn't know if this made me happy or feel even worse.

I felt like my feelings were torn into two pieces. One part wanted to collaborate and hope for even more, but the other stayed realistic and told me to just refuse this offer. But how should I? With which kind of explanation?

I took a deep breath before answering, "Then, how should we name it?" He looked at me and a little smile was formed on his lips. "After the rain.", "After the rain?", I repeated like I didn't understood him. "There's always sunshine after the rain, right? I want to bring that sunshine to my fans and especially to you.", He explained. I wanted to hug him so badly, but of course I couldn't even move an inch closer to him, without having the feeling, that I took advantage of his state. "Did you just came up with this?", I asked. He shook his head and said, "I wanted to form this unit for a long time now, but I never found someone who really suited it. Now I found someone." He smiled at me and I stuttered, "I-I? I am not sure, if I'm really suiting for such a bright sounding unit...", "Maybe you're not right now, but in the future, with me." I wanted to cry and smile at the same time, but I couldn't express one of those emotions and sit there for a short while in silence, till I got my thoughts together again. "I will try it. I will try to be a bright and fun person, just like the name.", "You don't have to force yourself. I will make sure you will become so." He said while getting a bit closer to me.

"You're really warm Mafu-kun." I looked at him. "Would be bad if not." I replied more or less serious. "You're right." He answered a bit giggling. "I'm glad you're warm. I can feel that you're alive and right next to me, because of it." I blushed and due to his words and if I hadn't known it better, I would have said he did like me. But he was straight.

I knew that since Amatsuki told me about him. He told me that he already had something like a girlfriend, but both couldn't really confess, so they stayed friends. I begged him, to tell me the name of her, but he refused to tell me. He said, that I could stalk her or something like that. I never expected Amatsuki thinking like this about me. He didn't even knew that I was gay and still... I had the feeling he knew, but I couldn't think of any way how. I always talked about women when I felt like I had to. I never bought any yaoi or stuff like this. I always said that I liked gochiosa, but still. I hated the feeling, that someone found out my secret. A secret I kept since I knew that I was gay. I always got bullied even without them knowing it. I didn't wanted to make it even worse.

What if he doesn't remember this evening? A weird idea formed itself in my mind. I could at least hug him, right? It's not like this would be against the law... My hand reached out for his shoulder and I slowly pulled him closer to me, till I could wrap my arms around him. "You're warm too, Soraru-san." I mumbled. He didn't reply at first.

Then he broke the silence, as he said, "I don't know why, but I can't explain the reason I'm so attached to you... I just can't. I only know you for two... Or three... Days. Ah, I don't remember... Whatever. It's still a short time." I couldn't decide if his words were good or not. I really liked, that he was attached to me and I think it was adorable, that he was this confused because of me, but that the reason was still unknown for him worried me. I wanted him to say, that he loved me. Nothing else, but this was only a dream I had. He would never say this.

I decided to get these thoughts out of my head, so that I could concentrate on this moment. Maybe it would be the last time, we were together like this, who knows?

Right after I began to look at Soraru, I could see that he began to sleep in my arms. Well, great, now I would have to carry him home, but wait... I didn't know where his flat even is. I only was there once and I couldn't remember the way at all. God... Now I would have to take him with me. Maybe I should just wake him up? I looked at his adorable looking face, while sleeping. I couldn't. I decided to carry him on the back. My apartment was luckily just around the corner. So I went out with him, had to ignore the gazes of the cashier and went back to my apartment.

The streets were completely empty and it rained a bit, it was cold too, but Soraru was really warm, so it wasn't as bad, as being alone. I looked at the, for me familiar, street, I went along and smiled as I realized the situation I was in. A drunken guy on my back and I carried him back to my flat, without doing anything to him or better said, with him. I'm really a good guy, right? Sometimes- no- often I was too good to other people, that's why I was bullied so many times too.

I was pretty done after carrying him the whole way. It felt really refreshing to stretch myself after laying him down on the couch. "Sleep well", I mumbled before going to sleep myself.

Already the 10. Chapter of the new story! (≧▽≦)
Hope that everyone enjoys the story so far and that you will continue reading it, too. I really like the idea of putting some real parts into this fictional story. <(￣︶￣)> Do you guys think the same? I Would love to hear your opinions about it.