23 March 2016
0023
Cya same place same time. Night. Okay. No replies. Nevermind, I didn't want him to promise anyway. What does he want to say tomorrow? We'll see.
0600
Man I woke up later than usual. Not a good sign.
1000
I'm sleepy. Wonder if I will see him at recess. Probably not. His recess? He didn't say anything about that. So I don't want to meddle. Or else he might get tired of me.
1305
Wonder if I will catch a glimpse of him. Will he even come? Maybe, maybe not. Take it easy.
1540
Its his recess time. Verlac didn't come. Okay. Want to meet him? No. Don't be a busybody. I'm tired. Yes, do rest.
1600
Recess finishes around this time. Okay. Study. Miss Reyna tells me that some teacher suggested my name for scrabble. And she suggested Verlac. In a meeting. I wonder why she did not ever mention Chaol. Maybe I can tell him about this later. But will he even come? Dunno. Don't think negatively. What was the important thing that he wanted to tell me? Dunno. Just wait.
1700
Yeah. An hour left. Calm down.
1750
May as well go to the canteen. Okay. I see a familiar guy. Smile. Wave a hello. Okay he didn't see me. Or maybe he did but he ignores. Oops, its not just a familiar guy. Its Chaol. Is it? Take a clearer look. Yeah maybe. Better hide. Take another look. Too late. He's gone. Okay go to the canteen.
1800
In ten minutes. I feel alone.
1810
Okay no one is coming. He's busy? Or teacher sent them late? Um. Go check whether Narrender and that girl is in the Tamil class. Okay they aren't. And I don't see any people from 2A. Well maybe teacher sent them late. Or PE? No way. Bristol had theirs. I am Athens and my class went first... so its according to sequence, right? Right. Okay go back and study.
1820
He's definitely not coming. "Chill. Chill." You want to go to check his class? No. "He's not coming. Chill. Chill. Chill." I see green shirts in the hall. Wait. Is that his class? "I think I see him." I don't know. Go back.
1830
That is his class. Will he say sorry? Maybe yes. Is he missing me? Probably not. He won't feel sorry cause he thinks its not his fault. Well, its not his fault. Yeah. But. But what? Nothing. Okay.
1835
Pack up. There are three routes you can use to reach the gate. Two are beside the hall where he can see you. One is you can go upstairs, along the corridor passing the library, and go downstairs. Why would I want that route? I don't want to see him. No. I dont want him to see me or watch me. No. He wont watch me. Hes too busy doing pumpings and stuff. But what if? Okay take that route. Do I want to wait for him? No. But why? Its not his fault. But I am left alone. He shouldve at least told me when he came down. Wait for him. It doesnt matter, not his fault anyway.
1840
Where is he now? I see some of his friends. He should be out now. What if he's absent? I trust my eyes. I saw him twice today. What if my eyes are unreliable? No. Take a peek at his classmates. I don't see him. "He should be here by now." (Hey) Turn around. Who is it? "Hi". Its him. Okay. That surprised me a little. "So, how are you?" (...) I can't process it. (Im sorry ..... ) what did he say at the end? Say its okay. "Yeah, its okay" No its not. But he doesnt need to know it. (...) say I dont know. "I dont know" (Promise me you wont cut your hand) "I cant control that" Yeah. I can't. He's going to go. "Cya" yeah.. bye.
1855
Was that what he wanted to say yesterday? Maybe. Maybe not. Whatever. Chill.
1940
Should I tell him? Maybe. But I cant tell him straight. Okay I'll make it a kind of diary.
2030
Done. Wanna send it? Okay.
***
I sent it, but I cannot remember what he replied me with. I only have this note as remembrance to this particular day.
It was a Wednesday and as he does not take Mandarin class he was free to meet me at the canteen beside the classroom where his other classmates were.
We met each other there, every Wednesday.
Now before you think that it is romantic, I'll have to tell you that we were beside a classroom full of his classmates and also his teacher. Besides, his best friend is sometimes there too.
That day, though, his friend wasn't there, maybe because they quarreled... Sadly, I don't remember any longer.
Yeah, probably because they quarreled.
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