My Life

23. Just A Little More

09/08/2016

I'll still call just in case you're there. Anyway will you come early on Friday? Try not to bring your laptop unless there is Arduino, or bring it to my class if that's okay unless you trust your friends to take care of it for you.

I have a project to do that day, but I don't think it'll take our time. Even if it takes our time, I already asked the teacher's permission on whether I can bring you to help me. It is a form 5 experiment, and benefits you. If you wanna join throughout the whole experiment, you can come at 12.15 and go to the chemistry lab and wait for us.

If you don't wanna join, just come as usual and wait for me at your class. Then, follow me when I come, either to my class or to the chemistry lab (in case the experiment isn't finished, you can look at it and even help)

I'll still call. If you're there, pick up because I really don't trust messages. Come early on Friday as usual, or come earlier if you want to join me. And don't be a seener. Reply me when you can, even if it is late at night. I'm not invisible. Will you come early on Friday?

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friday 12 August, he disappointed me so so much

He refused to go with me for the experiment. That's just sad like hell. So I told him whatever I wanted to tell him and went away. I even cried.

When I went back to the experiment lab, my teacher told us something and my friend asked me about it and I just shrugged my shoulders because I really had no idea and didn't want to listen to what the teacher said.

My teacher told my friend that she shouldn't ask me because I'm pretty sad that my friend didn't come and can't process what she said. Everyone was in awe that she knew. I was even much more that tears brimmed my eyes.

I called him that night but he didn't pick up.

On Sunday I called him much earlier than usual and he picked up and we talked about french. It was a really happy talk, but it got interrupted by his mum.

On the next thursday, I called him freaking more than ten times or around there and he didn't pick up.

On friday he came late. Probably because I didn't get to tell him to come early. And then I just wrote a note because I'm kinda tired of talking. On that note I just told him that I haven't completely given up on him but I need him to tell me whether we are still gonna be together and stuff I can't remember. I put it in his drawer. Then I went off to the library just in case he is there and I didn't find him. I had a chat with my english teacher and then I went out of the library.

I saw him and Aiden coming towards me. I was like, "Aiden, did you give him the note? No, right?"

He said no. Then all of us stood outside the library, talking, and Aiden stood between me and him. Aiden wants to eat outside so he asked Nate whether he wants to join him. I think Nate nodded but when I think back, he probably didn't because wen all of us went down the stairs, Aiden and Nate parted ways.

I followed Nate as he picked up his pace, not talking to me. I asked him where he was going and he said, "Class." And that kind of shut me up. He went walking faster and faster and in the end, running. I gave up keeping up to him and followed him at my own pace.

I reached his class and sat beside him in silence, because I was tired and also because I know he wouldn't reply to whatever I say. I took the note out and handed it to him. He took it, read it, and stuffed it in his bag and he didn't reply. No, even though in the note I asked him to come with me, I didn't ask him to come with him to my class, because I know he just wouldn't, and I kind of gave up.