My Life

18. A half date

The only time I ever got out to somewhere with him, that are not school activities, was on June 1.

Two months, two months that we were already together.

He invited me to go bowling with him on 1st of June.

And well, on that day, my ex boyfriend also asked me to go to McDonald's.

Obviously I chose to go for an outing with Chaol.

I had my best friend Aiden with me, and he had his best friend Narrender with him.

Literally it was an all boys and one girl outing.

During the bowling session, Narrender got number one, Chaol number two, Aiden number three and me, number four.

Afterwards we went for badminton.

I really sucked at badminton but I enjoyed watching Chaol play.

He looked particularly hot that day and I just had no words to say.

Chaol saw that I played badminton badly and wanted to teach me but I just couldn't get what he was saying.

I felt like I wanted to drag him outside and just kiss him for once, but my friend and his friend were both there, and I was damn shy so I didn't do it.

It's kind of hard to describe what happened that day for I had already forgotten lots of things except for the sweating and all the happiness that we felt.

It made me hope that our relationship could actually go on relentless of what happened in school.

I really loved him.

Then I had a dream.

We were walking along the left outer side of the staffroom when Ms Syaz saw us and I just went somewhere else (I forgot where) with Niate to hide. Nate was the one who brought me to his classroom. We were running. He was gripping my hand while running so I wasnt knowing the direction, just blindingly running, following him.

Later on, the background changed and we were at my primary school, block B, second floor, first classroom to the right. In my dream the class was stated as his classroom. And we were in the same session, morning session.

I just went inside when his class teacher also came in. I borrowed a paper and pencil from his classmates and wrote some stuff about teachers as usual, even though the teacher was in the class. I did not retreat and she also acted as if I was part of the class.

A couple of periods passed by and I had no chance of going back to my classroom as the teachers were very timely and they arrived every time the other teachers went out. Luckily for me no one recognised me and Nate's classmates did not betray me.

There was one teacher who almost recognised me but as I turned away she did not bother to investigate further. Her name was Ms Magdalene.

Nate did not sit by my side. He was on the right side of the classroom and I was at the left, by the back door. So I did not see much of him. But everyone I could remember from his class were there. Ariffin, Narrender, Farra, Farah, Adreena, Ilham, Amar, Said, Priya, and many others.

Soon I had my chance to go out of the classroom, but as I went out of it, I knew I would have to try hard to find my classroom as everyone changed their classroom places, and I do not know where mine was.

First, I ran up to the third floor, and I saw Ms Habibah. She pointed a finger at me, fixed her eyes at me with a stern and hateful look, and said, " Ruth, how dare you play truant! "

I was scared out of my wits but I decided to not stop running and ignore her. So I just passed her by and continued running along the corridor without stopping to look at her anymore, not caring what she would do.

I ran downstairs to the second floor again, and surprisingly there was a bridge that doesnt exist in real life that leads to Block A's second floor. I ran along it and turned left, peeking into every classroom to check if it was my classroom.

And yes, my classroom was at the end of the corridor, at the left side of the building, exactly opposite of Nate's classroom. I went inside, and at that minute, school ended, and luckily for me, there were no teachers in my class.

I took my stuff (I wonder how I could have stuff inside when I don't even know where is my classroom, maybe my friend out them there for me), and as I was retelling my story to my friend, Nate came running to me through the same route I took earlier.

As I saw him, I thought, " Goodness gracious.. this is the first time he has ever came to find me. " Then, " what happened.. maybe he has something important to tell me. "

But in the end it turns out that he was just escorting me downstairs, wanting to walk with me before he goes home. So I acquiesced, happy that he was being sweet, because its very rare of him.

As we reached the school gates, he disappeared, as he always does, as his driver was always early. No chance for me to say bye, as usual, but this time I didn't even hear him say bye. The dream ends with him disappearing and me looking around for him, starting another dream that I do not remember.

All of the running are maybe because of the outing to the sports complex the evening before. And the teachers are probably because of my exam retaking the morning before. It was a puzzling dream, as we were in the primary school instead of our own school afterwards.

But I dreamed of him yet again.

After a few days, yet something happened that I didn't really love.

I woke up early in the morning and played the Facebook apps, and most of the results turned out to be him, therefore I took screenshots of them and sent it to him.

One of them was actually saying that I broke his heart before. I teased him, asking him why.

He told me that it was because I always won over him in everything.

I had no words to say. I never won over him, if he thought carefully.

I always put him first, and also he was obviously smarter as he was two years younger and yet his results are so good.

I really have no idea about what he was thinking.