31. His birthday

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I think this might be the last chapter of this story.

After all, there's nothing much left to say.

I made a bookmark for his birthday present.

It was sea green and black with red lettering as if they're dripping blood.

The lettering said I AM AWESOME.

Seems a pretty cool bookmark for him.

I made this because he had once told me that in his world, people are separated into four different groupings, namely less awesome, awesome, more awesome and most awesome.

I was categorized into the more awesome category while he was in the awesome category.

Aside from that, he had also asked me to buy any T-shirts that has I AM AWESOME printed on it if I see one.

I did not, therefore I thought that a bookmark should be enough.

I wrapped it up with paper and wrote another letter which said that I hope we could go through many things together although next year we will be busy and we will also leave each other after one more year.

The next day, I gave it to him while wishing him a happy birthday.

I did not look at him properly.

No, I had never dared to look into his eyes ever since the break up for I fear that I might break down anytime.

Because his eyes would only show an absence of feelings, and it would only be as if it was my fault when it wasn't.

He told me that he appreciated it in message when he came home, but after I replied him that he was welcomed, he did not reply me anymore.

He tagged me in two posts that showed his birthday cake in it and thanked the people for all their wishes.

I commented in both of them but he did not reply my comments.

The very next day, I had to go to his class to give him his certificate of the Arduino Young Innovative Competition.

So I went and he told me that he was very grateful of the present I gave and wondered how I could've known what he wanted.

I told him that I didn't know. I only tried my best.

It was true, in a way.

I tried my best.

I know I shouldn't have had made him anything when he did not even do anything on my birthday and plus we already broke up, but he was still pretty important in my eyes.

So I did. And I'm glad he liked it.

I only looked at the space on his right throughout the conversation for I could not look into his eyes even though I was quite sure that he was looking right at me.

What can I do? I might break down any moment.

What can we do?

Love...

Life happens... All the time...

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