My Life

25. Well

After we reached school, Chaol practically didn't talk to me anymore.

I asked him whether he could bring me home too but he said he didn't know.

It was actually alright because it was meant to try to get him to talk, although I did need a transport to go home in case my van wasn't there as usual.

When class ended, it was around 6.40pm. I followed him outside and asked him whether he could bring me home, yet again.

Then he had a sudden phone call and picked it up, successfully muting me. After his phone call, I asked him whether I could borrow his phone to call my parents because it was alright if he can't bring me home.

I asked him, twice, but he ignored me. Then his car came and he just walked away. He turned to look back at me once, and continued going.

I was, quite frustrated at that. I went on to find my van, and luckily for me, it was there.

I couldn't understand him. Nor could I believe it of him. My own boyfriend, leaving me like I was a piece of trash.

Even if he wasn't my boyfriend, I wouldn't have expected him of that. Any friend wouldn't do that.

At least he should've tell me that he couldn't bring me home. Then I would say it's okay and find a way home.

Or just lend me the phone for a moment when I asked for it, so I could call my parents.

But no, he just left me like that.

Just like that.

I was so mad and angry at him afterwards. At first, it was just hurt and sadness, but when I thought of it more, I found out that he was irrational, and I was not wrong at all.

So I went home and started asking him why he did that to me. And he dared to answer that I still got home safely.

I asked him what if I didn't,  and he said sorry, but I wasn't satisfied, for he didn't reply me afterwards when I told him what he should've did.

I told this to my friend, and he gave me a paragraph of insults to send to Chaol.

I told Chaol's friends about it too and they tried to talk to him but his ego was so high he didn't want to admit that it was his fault.

I was so mad that I sent the pharagraph of insults although at first, I didn't mean to.

That was the last match for he left the group chat afterwards, and caused me to rethink my action.

Maybe I was too harsh after all... for he did say sorry.

I realized my mistake and went to apologize to him.

There was still exams the next day, and now that he left the group, I wondered whether he would just not bother about sending me to that school the next day.

It wasn't that I really worried about it but I still wanted to talk to him and I didn't want to tell my mother that all of a sudden I lost my transport and needed her to bring me to that school.

So I apologized profusely while he didn't even touch the chat.

Soon, I started to cry.  

He came back though and he told me that I didn't know how to appreciate what he did for me.

I didn't know what to say. I was really a bitch right then for being mad at him after all he did for me that day.

But then at the same time, he was also at fault. I decided to ignore the fact and apologize, but he thought that I was apologizing because I wanted the transport for the second day.