My Life

13. The Friday Afterwards

I have a very serious question to ask, because when I am happy, I always get splashed by Verlac's big pail of cold water. As I said in messenger, I believe you love me and I just need to wait for you and you will do everything else. You can be a romantic, but you can't do it too fast. I understand that. I just hope that you will hold my hand on your own accord next time :) I am already quite happy. And please always remind me that you love me, because I might forget. And do look into my eyes and don't avoid eye contact, please :) I loved it today, it was really fun, because I got to do the activities with you. You're really awesome, and yeah I'm forgetful. So remind me that you love me everyday. :p Before I can forget, can I ask a question, a very very serious question?

If I go back to my own life, that is, not involving myself in your sesi petang life anymore, that is, changing my lifestyle again, that is, I won't see you much again, that is, giving you the chance to mend the relationship, that is, you have to manage to convince and ask me to stay or else I won't stay, that is, giving up on trying to make you love me,

1. Will you miss me, will you want me back in your life, will you make the effort to ask me to stay, to ask me to and make me continue loving you, to continue hoping for us to be together, to ask me to be your girlfriend?

2. Or will you just not bother, and go on living your life like you have never met me before, because you never loved me at all and its all just a lie?

3. Or will you get hurt, and think that I don't love you enough to wait for you to get over your shyness, and hate me for leaving you alone, and give up on our relationship?

This was what I sent him on that Friday, 25th of March. The result was not quite what I expected. The result made me love him more, I guess.

[3/25, 20:29] Chaol: Yes I will be missing you , especially with all the things you bring into my life . But I have to see this in two perspectives , maybe you can't stay back everyday . I understand that . I will miss you, and yes I will try to bring back that time of joy .

[3/25, 20:30] Chaol: You should go back to your own life , its me dragging you from reaching your potential.

[3/25, 20:30] Ruth: Not like that :)

[3/25, 20:32] Ruth: I love you

[3/25, 20:32] Chaol: I love you too. but you really should go back to your own lifestyle.

[3/25, 20:33] Ruth: I can love you even if I go back, you know :)

[3/25, 20:33] Chaol: I know

[3/25, 20:34] Chaol: I'm guessing that you get scolded

[3/25, 20:35] Ruth: No :)

[3/25, 20:35] Chaol: You're tired

[3/25, 20:35] Ruth: Sometimes

[3/25, 20:35] Chaol: You get bad results

[3/25, 20:36] Chaol: Its hard to stay in school and get back hone

[3/25, 20:36] Chaol: Home

[3/25, 20:36] Ruth: I didnt get really bad results

[3/25, 20:37] Chaol: Are you going back to your own life?

[3/25, 20:37] Chaol: And why

[3/25, 20:37] Chaol: ?

[3/25, 20:37] Chaol: Because of me?

[3/25, 20:38] Chaol: Yup its always me. I'm the person who did wrong.

[3/25, 20:38] Ruth: No :)

[3/25, 20:39] Chaol: Which statement?

[3/25, 20:39] Ruth: To every single statement

[3/25, 20:39] Chaol: You didn't want to stay back because its a waste of time and I can't see you even if I promise

[3/25, 20:40] Ruth: Yes, and no

[3/25, 20:42] Chaol: But be sure you check out the science carnival, I'm there. There's lots of fun experiments that will be done by me

[3/25, 20:43] Ruth: Okay when is it?

[3/25, 20:43] Chaol: And good luck for your scrabble game with Boon Heng.

[3/25, 20:45] Ruth: I would like to call you from whatsapp

[3/25, 20:45] Ruth: Thanks for your wish

[3/25, 20:46] Chaol: Yeah, you do what you love and I'll do what I love

[3/25, 20:47] Ruth: I love staying back. I just don't like waiting

[3/25, 20:48] Chaol: What are you doing?

[3/25, 20:49] Ruth: I'm talking to you, waiting for you to reply.

He changed the topic, but I had what I wanted. I was more convinced than ever that he does love me.