Wasn't expecting that

Breaking point

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️
MENTIONS & MOMENTS OF SELF HARM!!
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YOU'VE BEEN WARNED !!! ⚠️️⚠️️⚠️️
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Cara rushes upstairs the tears streaming down her face, her heart beating fast.

She can nearly see with the tears blinding her sight, without thinking she runs to the bathroom and locks the door behind herself.

"Cara?!" Raf calls as he runs upstairs after her, she knew she wasn't in the right frame of mind.
He knocks the bathroom door and waits for a reply but doesn't get one "Cara I know your in there, trust me it's all going to be fine, it's not cancer they've told you that and we can try again for a baby" he says through the door to Cara.

Cara doesn't listen to him, not thinking at all she breaks open the blade in her razor and looks at it, she has caught her finger on the edge but not thinking she runs the cool blade along her wrist.

She breathes out as she does and bites her lip, "Cara please answer me" Raf says.

She runs it across her wrist a few more times before placing the broken razor in the bin and putting the blade on top of the cupboard.

She sits down against the edge of the bath and cries to herself. "Cara let me in" Raf says as he kicks the door.

"Leave me alone" she mumbles.

"I'm not leaving you alone, let me in Cara" he says.

"No" she mumbles and ignores him.

"Right I'll come in then" he says as he gets a coin out and unlocks the door using it.

Cara gets up and backs into a corner, "get away from me" she snaps.

Raf opens the door and goes over to her "come ere Cara, oh babe" he says.

"No" she screams as she doesn't want him near her.

"Cara you're not very well... just let me help you" Raf says.

"No, I'm fine" she says.

"No you're not Cara, look at yourself" he says.

Cara messes with the sleeves of her hoodie and looks at Raf. "Come on let's get you to bed" he says.

"But...but I'm not tired" she says.

"Yes you are... you're exhausted" Raf says.

Cara says no more and looks at Raf and falls into his arms.

Raf takes her through to their room and lies her down in bed. "I want a drink, no I need a drink" Cara says as she's really agitated.

"I'll go get you some water" he says.

"No something warm, I'm cold" she says as the tears troop her.

"Okay a cup of tea" he says, Cara nods and sits up in bed,

Raf quickly goes downstairs and makes her a hot drink. Cara sits and stares into space crying.

She holds onto Jack's blanket close to her face, Raf comes back up and gives her her tea.

Raf sits beside he and strokes her cheek, "I'm tired" she says as she finally gives in and realises that she is actually tired.

"You haven't slept in three days, it doesn't surprise me you're tired, you need your sleep for Saturday" he says.

"Why what's Saturday?" she asks getting herself wound up again.

Raf hugs her "you know, it's the funeral" he mutters.

Cara continues to cry and lies herself down and just cries herself to sleep.

Raf lies next to her and strokes her cheek. Soon enough she is finally asleep, Raf lies awake just starting at her.

He's never seen her like this before and he hates it. "Oh cara" Raf sighs.

He kisses her head gently which makes her wriggle about but fall back to sleep again, He takes her hand and strokes it and kisses the back of his hand.

He looks at her arm before looking back at it in shock at what he sees. "Oh Cara no, not this, anything but this" he sighs.

He looks at the cuts on her arm not knowing what to do at all. He is completly shocked, They look rather aggravated and sore.

"Cara I promise I'll make everything better" he sighs.

He lies down beside her and cuddles up to her before dropping off to sleep.