Wasn't expecting that

Shes not herself

It's been a few days since Jack passed away and Cara has been home a day, she hasn't done much but sleep and stare at the wall.

"Can I make you anything fot lunch?" Raf asks as she lies on the sofa.

She shakes her head and pulls a fleece blanket over herself, "You need to eat Caz" he says but she continues to shake her head.  "What about a cuppa and a biscuit so you can talk you tablets?" Raf asks.

"I'm not hungry" she replies.

"Well you need to take your meds and your mum and sister are coming round later" Raf informs here.

"I'm fine the pain is bearable" Cara mutters.

"No Cara, it's to help stop infection aswell, come on babe, I'm sure you don't want to end up back in hospital again" Raf says.

She takes them off Raf and pretends to take them and hides them under her tongue.

"Swallow!" Raf says as he watches her closely. "There's no fulling me Cara Martinez" he adds.

She pretends to swallow and gets up, Raf sighs and sits down.

She goes to the bathroom and spits them out, "Any better now?" he asks as she comes back in.

Cara nods and sits back down. "You're mum said she would make lunch when she comes" he says.

"She can make herself some then" Cara mutters.

Cara justs sits there before bursting into tears, "Oh Cara" Raf says.

Raf goes to hug her, "no leave me alone" she says as she gets up and walks through to her bedroom.

She sees Jack's blanket lying in a box to go in the attic and picks it up, She runs it against her face and cries.

"Oh I'm sorry baby, mummy didn't mean to let you go" she cries.

Raf goes to see her as he knows she's fragile. "Piss off Raf" Cara mutters as Raf walks in.

"Only came to see if you're okay" he says.

"Well I'm fine now go away" she says.

"Okay okay" Raf says.

Cara gets up on the bed and sighs as she looks through her bedside draw.
Raf leaves her be and goes back to the lounge.

Cara catches her finger on something in her draw and pull her hand out quick.

She puts her finger in her mouth and winces "fuck" she mutters, She gets up and heads into the bathroom.

She runs her finger under the tap and gets a plaster out of the cupboard, She puts the plaster on before going back to the lounge.

Raf looks at Cara and smiles a little, She sits down just as she hears the doorbell ring, "I'll get it" Raf says.

Cara just sits there playing with the plaster, Cara looks up to see Lucy standing there with a bunch of flowers.

"Hello Cara" Lucy smiles.

"Hi" Cara smiles a little.

"Mummy said you needed cheering up so I brought my comfort bear and some flowers for you" Lucy smiles.

"Aw that's really nice of you" Cara says as she starts to smile.

"Don't worry Cara, I'll look after you and the Angels will look after Jack" Lucy says as she climbs onto the sofa and hugs Cara.

Cara smiles a little and hugs Lucy back as she is happy to see her, "Mummy said I can get my ears pierced, and you can come with me" Lucy says.

"Lucy easy on Cara, she's had an operation aswell" Joan says.

"Oh sorry" Lucy says as she pulls away from the hug a little taken back.

"Why don't you go play with Raf for a bit" Cara sighs. "I'll talk to you later?" Cara says and Lucy just nods and leaves her alone.

"Cara isn't herself poor mite" Joan sighs as she stands with Raf.

"Do anything you can to cheer her up, please" Raf says as Lucy comes running through to the hall.

"Mum Cara's crying again, I can't stop her" Lucy says in a panicked tone.

"Alright Luc, why don't you play with Raf like Cara said and I'll have a chat with you sister hmm?" Joan asks and Lucy nods.

Joan walks over to Cara and sits down next to her, She says nothing but just hugs Cara in which Cara just hugs her back and cries.

"Mum" she mutters as she cries.

"What is it sweetheart?" Joan asks as she rubs Cara's back.

"I can't" she cries

"I know but you can, your so strong Cara" she says. Cara cries even more and holds onto her mum.