The Azkaban Kid

Chamber Of Secrets

It was two weeks until the end of the school year. June 5th to be exact. It had been 5 days since I started Occlumency and along with a bit of herbology, that is all me and Severus have been doing.

I had been a bit annoyed today though. People kept being nasty and taunting me. It was really getting on my nerves. It was a Thursday and I was quite excited for the weekend. Having a colossal headache every day is not nice.

I guess I can be grateful for one thing, scar face had finally let me have dinner with the other kids again. Although I am not really liking the other children, it's nice to be in a nice environment.

Yes, before you ask, I'm going soft. I seem to be turning back on myself. This has only happened since I've been at Hogwarts. Seeing all those memories each day, all the time. Making me re-live them. It's making me vulnerable again.

I'm still cold and nasty to people I don't know or like though. I am by no means a push over or a wussy.

I dumped my new school bag on my bed and bounded out of the room.

"Let's go! I'm hungry already!" I exclaimed. Scar face scowled at me and I gave him a little wave. "Show some emotion scarface, if the wind changes you'll be stuck like that."

"Don't get smart with me jailbird!" He spat back. I was taken aback a bit.

"A jail what?" I glared. Yep, still got my hot temper.

"I don't need to explain to you." He grunted as started to leave. I walked over to Lupin and raised an eyebrow at him.

"Jailbird means someone who had been to prison." He shrugged. He placed his hand on my shoulder and guided me out of the room. Pfft, did you really think they were suddenly going to let me have some freedom? No.

I sighed and carried on walking with the guard pack. Scarface, Bill, Remus and that Tonks. We walked in silence down to the hall.

I took my seat at the end of the teacher table and, as usual, students glared at me. Dumbledore finally began the feast and the attention was taken away, luckily.

I ate some steak pie with gravy and new potatoes and sweet corn. Luckily Scarface wasn't sitting next to me today. Now was my chance to speak to Remus properly.

"Hey Remus?" He turned a little shocked at my greeting.

"Sarai?" He raised an eyebrow.

"Do you actually like this?"

"Like what?" He seemed confused.

"Being a stupid guard for a murdering bitch?" Yeh, I was coming to terms with the fact that I was a horrible and disturbed girl.

"Don't call yourself that Sarai." He scolded. "Yeh, it's ok."

"Do you get any money though?" He sighed.

"No actually. The Order is a team, fighting bad an helping good, there isn't any money involved."

"But I can tell that you need money." I mumbled. I got a sharp smack to the head and saw Scarface behind me. "What?" I spat.

"Don't talk to me like that. Also, don't talk to Lupin like that. Come on, we are leaving the hall!"

"Did I sound in anyway nasty when making my comment? Erm, no actually." I glared at him before turning to Remus. "I didn't mean it in a nasty way Remus." My voice softened slightly. The only people I used this voice for was Sirius and Remus, no one else.

"That's fine. You were right anyway." He smiled. I gave him a small smile back before being dragged from my chair.

"Jeez Scarface! I can walk!" I exclaimed as he pulled me from the hall. Remus, Bill and Tonks on hot persuit.