The Azkaban Kid

The Pshyciatrist Meeting

"I don't really know." I spoke quietly. Maybe this meeting wasn't such a great idea afterall.

"Come now, what do you want to talk about? Get it off your chest." He smiled.

"Erm, well, I don't know." I covered my face with my hands.

"Don't worry about it. I'll ask some questions instead. Simple ones first. What's your name?" That's a bit of a weird one.

"Poppy Sarai Dustan." I automatically said. Ok, I'm thinking it won't be too bad.

"Good. What's your age?"

"I'm twelve."

"Ok. These will be a bit harder. What did you think of your parents?" He asked gently. I don't know, I never actually knew them.

"I never knew my parents. I was only 7 months old when they got killed. The death eaters told me how they were horrible traitors and stuff, but I don't believe it anymore." The man grinned and nodded as he wrote.

"Very well. What about yourself? Your years in the orphanage?" That hit a nerve. Just thinking about it made me scared. I shook my head and looked down.

"It was a horrible place." I whispered.

"Alright. Maybe another time. How about your time here? Has it changed you?" He asked. I smiled weakly at that question. My time here had been great.

"Yes. This place has taught me for the better. When I first came, I was an idiot. The kids hated me or were scared of me and one of the Aurors absolutely hated me as well. He's gone now though, we had a huge argument." He was writing down everything I said, which I didn't mind really. This guy seemed to have a calming sort of thing about him.

"I used to hate the name Poppy for a while. I thought it was too muggle. But now I seem to hate my middle name instead. Remus has been so great to me, he's like my best friend. But Sirius is my ultimate best friend." I grinned.

"Sirius Black? He's escaped hasn't he?" Bastion asked me.

"Yeh he has. Which is a good thing, because he is honestly innocent." He just nodded and carried on writing. "Have you started school yet?"

"No I haven't. But I've been allowed to do potions and herbology, and Remus and Severus let me learn the Expelliarmus spell this morning. It was great. I'm starting this coming year though, I honestly can't wait. I just want some friends, but I doubt I'll find any." I looked down at my lap and studied my fingers.

"I'm sure you will. There is no need to be disheartened by the prospect. Think positive and believe in yourself." That's true, I think I need to be doing that more often.

"Thank you Mr.Torchwood." I smiled at him.

"Please, call me Bastion." I nodded as he stood up and collected his things.

"This may be short, but I believe this is enough for today. I don't want to pile it all on your shoulders. Thank you for cooperating Poppy. I'll speak to Severus and see when the next meeting shall be." He shook my hand again and I smiled at him.

"Ok. Thank you Bastion. See ya!"

"Goodbye Poppy." He chuckled and then left the room. Severus came back in after and sat down.

"How did it go?"

"Good thanks sir. I'm gonna head to my room for a bit." I walked to my room and just sat there for a while. Thinking about things mainly.

I thought about all the things in my life, good and bad. The bad things far outweighed the good. I always wondered what my life was like up until 7 months old. Was I really loved?

People say that my family were lovely and really cared for me. But I didn't know wether to believe them or not.

So many horrible things had happened to me, yet, I had done horrible things as well. I knew I deserved all the possible punishment but I wasn't going to start being all depressed again.

I'll try with the counselling. I'll try for Remus, Severus, Bill. I'll try for Dumbledore and the families of the people I murdered. But most of all, I'll try for Sirius. I've changed so much since I last saw him. He won't believe it.

The last time I saw him, I was only nice to him and no one else. That's totally flipped on its head now though. But I am still wart or mean to people I don't like or know. It can be hard for me to trust people after what happened in the orphanage.

There was a knock on my door and I got up to open it. Remus stood there and he looked angry at himself and guilty.

"Hey Remus." He jumped slightly and I stared at him expectantly.

"Poppy, I'm sorry for snapping at you earlier. I shouldn't have done that. I'm just so angry that he has escaped. It's a bit much to handle." Ah, so he still doesn't believe me.

"It's fine Remus. I understand. Do you have anything else to say?" He looked at me for a moment and then just suddenly hugged me. "Ok." I muttered. I hugged him back and then pulled away. "Are you okay Remus?" I laughed. He smiled back at me and nodded.

"Yeh. Come on, it's dinner time. I want you to tell me about the meeting." I followed him out and towards the great hall. It was a comfortable silence for most of the way there. Then I took my usual seat at the head table.

I grabbed some beef, Yorkshire puddings, mash and loads of gravy. Then Remus decided to put a load of carrots on my plate.

"Remus!" I whined.

"You need vegetables. Now eat up so you can tell me." I grumbled to myself and he chuckled.

I ended up eating it all anyway. I sat for a little while, waiting for Remus to finish his dinner and a conversation he was having with Professor Sinistra. Finally he looked over at me.

"Right then, let's hear it." He smiled.

"Ok. Well first, he asked me where we should start, but I didn't know. So he asked me my name and age, as a couple of starter questions. Even though he already knew anyway." Remus nodded and I carried on.

"Then he asked about the orphanage but I couldn't answer. It's too horrible to tell him yet and I don't want to."

"I understand Poppy. But you will have to tell him soon." I nodded.

"I know. Anyway, then I told him about how I had changed here and that I look forward to the coming school year because that's when I'm starting. He told me that I need to be confident and believe in myself because I moaned about probably not finding friends because people either hate me or are scared of me."

"Oh. I see your problem. But he was right to tell you that." Remus nodded wisely.

"I did feel better after he said that. So basically, it finished there. He said he'd speak to Severus and arrange another meeting." I shrugged. After that, Bill wanted to know. So I told him and then we all went back to the living quarters and I got ready for bed and stuff. Me and Remus watched a muggle film called 'Pirates of The Carribean'. He suggested it and I really loved it. I think it was the first one, or so Remus said.

Then I brushed my teeth and got into bed. Remus tucked me in and said goodnight before leaving the room. He left me to my thoughts and I thought about everything that had happened that day. I fell to sleep with a content smile on my face. Sirius was out.

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Sorry!! Sorry!! I know it's been ages, but I've been busy with college and stuff :-)

I hope you like it, it's a bit short I know and I'm sorry again.

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