Little White Lies (Harry Styles)

Chapter 5

Harry's POV

Maybe it got a bit out of hand. To begin with I didn't really care. She made a fool out of me infront of all my friends. Never before had I been rejected, let alone patronised about it!

When Zayn held his arm out to prevent her from going anywhere, the last thing I was expecting her to do was give him a chinese burn! Sounds harmless, but ever since he's been clutching his arm when none of us had been looking.

Since when do girls attempt to beat the shit out of people when she's clearly outnumbered. For a moment, I enjoyed the way Perrie was treating her. The way she slapped all the nonsense out of her, that was until Lolita punched Perrie right in the stomach.

And then came the bitch fight. I still remember seeing Danielle kick Lolita's shin. I love bitch fights usually, but this was different. I couldn't stop them from hurting her but I certainly didn't intervine; I would never have heard the end of it.

Believe it or not I was actually quite thankful Ronnie showed up, but then the gun came out and she threatened that if we didn't leave then she'd blow Perrie's brains out. Althought I wasn't that close to Perrie, I wasn't prepared to see the life get blown out of her right in front of my eyes. She meant alot to Zayn anyway, well that was until he ran, leaving her there with a gun pointed at her head. 

I started to jog off but when I heard Lolita protest against something I just had to see, I peered round the corner and watched her give Perrie one last punch. For a moment there, I was proud of her. Shes independant and strong minded, but then I remembered it was girls like that that ended up dead. Oh how I wish I was more careful with Emily.

Everyone blames me for her murder, especially Ronnie. None of them realise that Em was my best friend, I lost my virginity to her!

I met her in primary school. She was the new girl in year 5 and we immediately bonded. She was truly beautiful. They way her dimples used to become visable and her eyes used to squint when she laughed. Her long wavy blonde hair was my favourite. She was so innocent.

When we parted to leave for high school, I had no choice but to move on. I went to this shitty old school, and she went to boarding school. We left our friendship behind, as nothing but a memory.

She used to come visit me for 2 weeks each summer and that was when we did it. We were each other's first time and I couldn't have asked for it to have gone any better. The summer after, her dad died and she simply couldn't face seeing me. The year after she left boarding school and went to live with her grandparents in California, another summer without seeing her. Before I new it it had been 4 years without seeing her but I was getting over it, I had moved on and I expected she had aswell. It turns out not because when she moved to the same school I was at she was not happy with the person I had turned into.

She hated the way I used girls, how I didn't study or work hard in school, how I skived and how I was in a 'gang'. She was so angry at me that she had a go at me in front of the whole school and I was completely and utterly mortified.

My mate Liam knew how much it got to me and without me realising he sorted her out. Left her dead in the middle of nowhere, but he was caught out and sent down for it but there was no proof he actually killed her, so he was set free. I'm not sure whether I forgive him, I mean, he did it for me,, but little did he or I know that I really felt something for her.

I should've looked after her. I should've cared for her. I should've changed for her.

If I had then maybe she's be here right now in my arms.

I'd only ever had a proper thing for two girls before and that was Emily and another girl Sarah, but other than that all the girls I've been with have been meaningless one night stands. It's odd though because both Emily and Sarah were extremely close with Ronnie. That was until Sarah moved away and Emily..well died. So somehow I get the feeling something similar might happen between me and Lola.