Little White Lies (Harry Styles)

Chapter 68

Ronnie's POV

"You fucking dick!" I shout, pushing at Harry's chest before he can even notice i've approached him, it's just him and me and we're going to talk - well shout, one on one.

"Get off me" He spits, pushing me off roughly, his hair is matted on his head - probably due to the amount of times he's stressfully run his hair through it, and his face is pale, i look at him disgusted.

"Was this your aim all along? To break her" I shout and he goes quiet, eyes dropping slightly.

"sh-she's broken?" He stutters, looking up at me, and for a second I see the boy I fell in love with all those years ago. The boy that I use to walk home with from school, and that used to go on bike rides with me, and that used to pick me flowers from my own back garden.

"Yes she's fucking broken, what did you expect?" How could he be so naive to think that people get over the people they 'love' in the space of 10 minutes.

"Ronnie you have to believe me, I never meant to hurt her, she means the fucking world to me" He tells me, looking at me with pleading eyes as if i'm the one that will decide whether or not he can see her again. I wish I could be the decider of that game, because if I had it my way then she would never have to come across the likes of him again - he's not good for her, she could move on and be happy, but I don't have that decision, and no doubt will they speak again.

"Stop with the shit Harry. Why do you hurt everyone you fucking love?" I ask, actually intruiged at this question because it's true. There was Sarah who Harry adored, and she moved away because he broke her heart, there was Emily who was killed because of Harry's wrong doings, there was me who became emotionally frozen, and now Lola. "Lola's alot like me you know, she'll react the same way I did" I tell him and his eyes snap up to meet mine.

"Don't let her then, please Ronnie dont let her hurt as much as you did" He begs me, looking at me with those pleading eyes. And that hurts, that fucking hurts, because when he knew I was broken at how he treaded me, he didn't give two shits.

"It's too late" I whisper, begining to walk away.

"No! I won't let you take her away from me, she's mine!" He shouts, his angry and possesive side kicking in as usual in a fight.

"No Harry, she was yours! She was yours when I came to see you when she was in hospital and we talked about Emily. I told you to stay away from her, but you didn't, and I couldn't do anything about it because she was yours, but now I have more of a say in what she does than you. And you better get used to it, because it's going to be like that for a while." I scoff, laughing at how ridiclous he sounds.

"Ronnie, I can't lose another one" He mutters and my eyebrows furrow together in confusion.

"Can't lose another what?"

"Another girlfriend!" He snaps and I roll my eyes, does he know how desperate he sounds. I know that he doesn't mean it like that but I can't help but get annoyed at what he says because I'm so fucking angry at him

"Oh please, don't give me that, next month you'll find another girl and you'll corrupt her just ike you did all the others" I tell him, because it's true, he always finds a way to ruin them, whether it's them having to pack up and move somewhere completely new, or whether she becomes emotionally distraught, or even whether she dies!

"No, no I won't. Yes i've made mistakes, but this time it was different, I fucking love Lola, more than anyone else in this world" He shouts, a few people in the garden look over at us but he doesn't flinch at all and a part of me dies inside when I realise he's telling the truth, he never loved me like he loved Lola. "What are you thinking about?" He asks, obviously wanting to get inside of my thoughts, I decide to be honest.

"That you never really looked at me like you looked at Lola" I mumble and he hesitates for a while before nodding slowly.

"I guess you're right" He finally looks up, his eyes cold but they hold a certain type of sadness to them.

"You're not good for her Harry" I say, much calmer this time.

"But she's so good for me, she's my Rock, Ronnie. She holds me together, fuck, she's the only thing that can keep me sane" He explains his eyes keep flickering off behind me and I know that he must have noticed the car that has his girlfriend in. "Please let me talk to her" He begs and I hesitate for a while, thinking of what to say, but soon shaking my head.

"Let her rest, she's been through enough today as it is" And I turn and walk off, back to the car, I hear his footsteps after me but I climb into the car before he can stop me. His hands bang on the back window where Lola's sat.

"Lola, please" He begs through the glass window, the car mutes his voice but if you're silent you can hear him a little bit. "I love you, you know that's true. Let me explain it all" He begs and I start the car, looking behind me to see Lola just crying and shaking her head at him. "Don't leave me!" He yells, his voice raising and I take that as my queue to drive off. I watch in the reerview mirror as Lola watches him fall to his knees in the middle of the road as we drive off, soon followed by her loud sobs.

"Would you like to stay at mine tonight?" Sophia asks, comforting her by rubbing her back soothingly, and she nods, thanking her quietly.

"Can I stay with her aswell Soph?" I ask, not believing my own words. Sophia nods and I watch as Lola's head snaps up at my question and she gives me a slight smile. She looks so broken and hurt. That was once me.