One year ago Filipas life was flipped upside down, it was summer and the family were going over to the uk her grandparents on her mum sisters. Filipas parents and older sister passed away after a plane accident when they headed back to Poland, the o...
Last night after I put Karo to bed I went to talk to mrs dash and she said I could have the day off school so I can see Karolina off today. I was going to miss her so much I really was "im będzie tęsknić Karolina" (meaning I'm going to miss you Karolina) I speak to her in polish as she sleeps.
I've been up since five this morning, just sitting looking into her cot, it's going to be so weird when she's not here but I've got to put my fake smile on, I've got to make out I'm fine with her going when infact I'm not, my only family member left is going to be living with a new family, it's going to be as if I've never existed.
I know I can visit her but she won't remember me now will she, she will be happy though, have all the things I can't give her, so obviously she will happy. I get her outfit ready and place it on the changing table before getting mine ready and going back to lay on my bed
I pick my phone up from my bedside table and check the time 5:30, Karolina was up half an hour ago which means she will sleep until about 8 if I don't wake her. I put my phone back down and close my eyes and falling asleep once again.
I woke up again at 7:30, I was wide awake now and knew I should text Louisa and tell her I'm not coming into school today, I'm sure she will understand
To Louisa✨
Hey loulou I'm not going to be in school today, Mrs Dash is giving me a day off school so I can spend it with Karolina before she leaves
From Louisa✨
Okay FilFil, hope it all goes well, if you need to talk then just call me I'm here if you need me.
To Louisa✨
Thanks Lou, I will ring if I need to.
After I had texted Louisa I put my phone down and got Karolina out off her cot I tickled her gently and she giggled "today's the day" I speak out loud not wanting to cry but my voice cracks slightly and I place her on my Bed as I quickly grab her outfit off the day.
I take off her pyjamas, change her nappy and put on her light grey leggings and a light grey and pink long sleeve top with a small pink bow at the top off the top before putting her pinky Body warmer on. Once she was fully dressed I put her into a pair of grey and red striped socks on then I added her sliver coloured Dolly Flats and she was fully dressed
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After Karolina was dressed I gently placed very into her cot again and gave her some of her toys before I turn my phone on, go into YouTube and play some nursery rhymes for her while I dress myself and do my own hair.
