stay strong (1D fanfic)

chapter 20~ fix things

3 months left.

me and liam are friends and nothing else, he convinced me to talk to Harry  but I don't have the courage to call him so instead I'm at his door trying to find enough courage to knock. I don't have a day off today but I can get my chemio tomorrow, I can't do this without him, I need him and liam made me realise that I need him much more than I ever knew. my palms are sweaty and I'm trying to put a plan of what I'll say in my head but I'm worried that he won't listen. I feel like a dumbass standing out here like an idiot so I finally knock and the door swings open after a few minutes just as I was about to walk away "um hi what are you doing here? " he asked surprised "we need to talk . can I come in?" "sure" he said as he stepped out of the way. I've never actually been to his house before only the one he shared with the other boys. "so do you want anything to drink?" he asked awkwardly standing in the door way while I made myself comfortable in the living room "no thanks" "ok. I thought you have to stay in hospital on Tuesdays" he said looking worried "yeah but I had to talk to you and I'll be alright" "ok . but please don't pass out" I couldn't tell if he was serious or joking. we just sat there in silence, neither of us wanting to start the conversation so I spoke up "me and liam.... it's not what you think, we didn't kiss and I'm sorry about the date you planned and me and liam are just friends" he looked relived when I said that liam was just a friend but then looked down in though " it sure didn't look like it! I tried so hard and planned that suprise for you and then walked in on you almost kissing my friend!" he was raising his voice and I felt small and fragile but I wasn't going to let him win this argument "so what?! It's not like we're a couple! stop acting like you own me!"I fought back "maybe that's just because I wish you we're mine but I never have the courage to tell you because I'm scared that the girl I love will reject me and just want to be friends and taunt me everyday with her bright smile and kind eyes and I wouldn't ever be able to hate her for it because she will never fail to get my heart racing and I will never stop trying and losing my breath every time I see her because I love her" I looked into his eyes;  we were both crying right now but I smiled at his confession he loves me.... "did you ever just think of telling her? because maybe she felt the same way but could never admit it because she was afraid that her heart would fall apart if he didn't love her back, and she would think about him every night While crying because she would remember his dimples and the way his eyes seemed to light up every time he saw her" Harry looked at me and we got closer and closer "I'm telling her now. I love you nikki " he whispered as he connected his lips with mine and it was just like in the movies; sparks were flying and the butterflies in my belly were going crazy. "will you be my girlfriend? " he asked as he pulled away slightly out of breath "yes" a simple answer which took a lot of courage. we decided to cuddle for a few minutes and those minutes turned into hours until I felt myself being lifted by Harry "shhh go back to sleep babe" "where are we going" I'm not letting you sleep on the couch, I'm taking you to bed. go back to sleep" I did as he said and fell asleep in his arms. I guess it wasn't that hard to fix things between us maybe it's just love....

A.N ~ I don't know if I like this chapter but it's alright I guess.... maybe a bit cliché.... but anyway thanks for reading my lovely potatoes xx