stay strong (1D fanfic)

chapter 38~ hate

The game of truth or dare ended after Louis licked zayn's armpit and decided that the game was getting boring. Harry kept staring at me but I ignored it because I know that if I looked into his eyes I would melt and give in. Which I obviously couldn't do, I've stayed away from him for this long and I can carry on like this for at least a bit longer, until he finally realises that I'm not good enough for him and that he should go out with some skinny model because that's not what I am. I'm ME, I like my curves and short height. I'm silly, awkward and shy but that's the way I am and I'm not going to change. And he deserves SO much better than me and that's why I'm letting him go. Not because I don't love him, trust me,I really do but he should find someone who's used to paparazzi, being in magazine's and the thing that gets me down the most: the hate. I receive so much hate through twitter,tumblr,  instagram, everything!  It's everywhere I go. When me and Harry were together I got told how worthless, ugly and fat I was by 'fans' who thought I wasn't good enough for him and I even received death threats. You would've thought that after we broke up they would of left me alone but no they found other reasons to hate me. They said that I was never good enough anyway, that he probably dumped me because I was too fat but I never really payed attention to those. The ones that hurt the most were the ones about him finding someone new, someone better and prettier. Those messages hurt so much because I was afraid that it was true. I knew that he'd move on some day and fall in love with some pretty girl, they'd get married, have kids and be happy and it hurt so bad because I knew that I could've been that girl but I missed my chance.

A.N~not exactly an exciting chapter but it's more about how she feels and i haven't exactly written much about it.  hit 1K reads! thanks for reading my lovely potatoes !xx