I lie in bed thinking about how it's been 3 months since I last saw Harry and I miss him like crazy but he hasn't called for a month. He used to call every night to say goodnight but it's been so long and my nightmares aren't letting me get any sleep lately it hasn't just been the usual ones but also ones about Harry with a pretty brunette laughing and kissing and mocking me but the dream always ends the same way: Harry tells me he never loved me and breaks up with me. I can't tell Jaz about it because she's not supposed to get stressed and she's only two months away from giving birth and she's so moody and craves random foods all the time and I of course have to run to the store every 5 five minutes to get whatever she wants. As I finally decide to get up I sit up on my bed and slip my feet into my fluffy cat slippers that Harry got me last Christmas, I smile at the memory and head to the kitchen to make Jaz pancakes and find her already waiting "hey smelly" I joke as walk into the kitchen "hey stinky. I'm hungry " she whines "I'll make you pancakes. what would you like with them?" she thought for a while and finally answered "mmm nutella. ... lots of nutella" I smiled " whatever you wish for" she giggled " you'll have to cook for the baby soon and you'll have to live with me forever because the child will love you like a second mum" she talked while I finished up the pancakes and spread lots of nutella on Jaz's and a bit on mine. Jaz switched on the tv while I poured myself a drink and as I walked into the room the picture on the tv left me frozen in place. It's a picture of Harry with some girl and the tv presenter squeals in excitement "Harry Styles seems to have a new girlfriend! what happened to Nikki? Wasn't she supposed to be the love of his life!" as the woman spoke I tried convincing myself that the pictures were fake. he loves you. he would never do that to you. It's just photoshop. But each picture made the pain in my chest worse and I feel weaker and weaker and when I see a picture of them kissing, that's when I fall appart and drop the plate and glass that I was holding, letting it smash against the floor. Jaz gives me an apologetic look and I run into my room locking the door and screaming at the top of my lungs I won't cry over him. He's not worth my tears. I do my make up and change into shorts, a ramones top and put on my lucky charm necklace like always. I unlock the door and run down stairs grabbing my purse and car keys and before Jaz could stop me I was out the door.
A.N ~ quick update for Jaz because she's been feeling down lately. love ya Jaz! anyway thanks for reading my lovely potatoes love you all! xx
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stay strong (1D fanfic)
FanfictionNikki was once a normal teenage girl, but one day every thing came falling down. And that day just had to be her birthday.
