I think I've always been there,
Just never to this extent.
What I'm feeling right now is real,
I know I need help.
I've tried making myself happy,
The happiness disappears quite easy.
My happiness is like lightning a match,
It's all fired up but how quickly it goes out.
I'm not doing much better,
And I doubt I'll be fully myself until he's back.
I really want him back,
I'm waiting till he comes back.
I can't live like this for the rest of my life,
Now that I know what it's like.
If I have wait,
I eventually will want to end it all.
