All I want in this life is a soulmate,
But I really don't think it's gonna happen for me.
So many things about me is not ideal,
I'm not what guys want.
I'm not a size 2 modal,
I have Cerebral Palsy,
I don't speak or move like a normal person,
I'm just not good enough for any man.
Do you think I chose to be like this?
Do you think I like the way I am?
No, I really don't,
I really hate my body.
People don't see past the wall to see the inside,
They are too quick to judge.
They think I'm an empty shell with no emotions,
When I'm breaking into a million pieces.
I didn't think it'd ever happen for me,
When my ex came around I didn't want it end.
I really thought he was the one chance I'd get,
Now that it's over, I'm completely hopeless.
I'm in such a dark a place right now,
That I don't know how to get out.
Being home isn't making it better,
I keep thinking about how close I am to him.
I just want to break down all the time...
I miss my favorite people who can always make me feel better,
I need someone to tell me that everything's gonna be ok.
I'm completely hopeless for my life.
I don't know how to find hope again...
