I'm just so sick of feeling this way,
I'm like a cannonball ready for exploration.
I'm at the wall of the pool,
Ready to push far away from this life.
People will try and empathize with me,
But not one person will truly understand my life.
I wish I wasn't afraid to make my own decisions,
And not feel judged.
Every decision,
I make because it's what will make me the happy.
Is that enough to not try and change my mind?
All I'm doing is trying to make this life the least painful for me.
I know I'll maybe loose some things and people dear to me,
But it'll make me happy.
I really think only one person understands me fully,
And honestly they're all I really need in this world.
I need to get out,
And become who I am behind closed doors and in my mind.
I'm still the same kind heart and bright spirit everyone knows,
But I'm doing what makes me happy.
I'm sorry if you want me to be the 16 year old y'all think and want me to be,
But I'm 20 years old and smarter than I look.
Just...
Let me be happy...
if I make a mistake that's on me and NO OMR else.
