It's knowing there's no light at the end.
It's knowing that no one really understands.
It's doubting that anything will go right.
It's so desperately wanting someone that won't happen.
Or not wanting to get up in the morning.
Or it's not having any motivation.
Or it's that you know you're stuck in the life and body you have.
Or it's knowing that you're not good enough for anyone.
It's also knowing your family doesn't really understand.
And you turning into a person you like but your parents don't know.
And it's having dreams and hopes that won't happen.
And it's wanting to cry every single second you're awake.
Almost every one on these I struggle with every waking hour, And probably will for quite a while.
I don't know how to get out from under this very dark cloud,
Hanging over my head.
I wish I could see the sun in my forecast,
But I'm not sure I do....
