Sanity: The Saw Chronicles [C]

Chapter 56 | It's Not Me

My hand gently petted over Kuza's hair to sooth him down, "Shh, it's okay. It was a long time ago, Sweetie."

He nuzzled his head against my shoulder, squeezing my arm. Kuza sniffled, sitting up, "I know... I know I did bad things... I don't remember them... But I remember people telling me I'm a bad person... Did I... Did..." He paused for a minute to swallow down his tears, "Did I kill him?"

"You didn't. Someone else did." I replied, "You're going to start to remembering some bad things soon. Bad things I did to you, I mean. I want you to know that I'm sorry for all of them and I love you."

It took a minute to process, as does everything for him. He looked up at me with his glassy eyes, "...You do?"

"Yes, I do." I smiled, "I forgot you don't remember what's happened these past few months between you and I. I can't wait for you to remember though."

"Will you tell me? Please?" He softly asked.

How could I say no to that sweet, sweet voice? I figured it'd be best to show him rather than tell him. Tilting my head to the side, I pressed my lips against his. He was quick to melt into me. Kissing him now, it felt so... innocent. It was what I imagine a kiss with your high school sweetheart would feel like. Obviously I never got a chance to know what that's actually like. My point being, the evil lust in his nature was gone. He was being so loving to me.

"Does that answer your question?" I said as I pulled back.

He couldn't stop grinning. "Yeah... I can't believe I actually got you... I never thought you'd be mine."

"It's not as clear cut as you would've hoped for, but I don't want to stress you out with the details. The most important thing for you to know is you're mine and I'm yours."

Is this terrible to do? A little bit, but I'm only doing it so he can feel happy. They say we heal better when we're in the right state of mind. If he can find some joy, he'll be back to himself sooner.

"That's all I've ever wanted." His smile faded a bit, "I'm tired... Will you lay with me?"

"Of course. I could use a nap too." I replied.

I didn't sleep much on the long flight over here. My mind was so busy, thinking about what I could be walking into. He could've been much worse than when I left. I was so glad to find him doing this well. Chris, on the other hand, is pretty damn fucked up now. We're going to get to the bottom of this. I know I can't let Angelo lose him.

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Some yelling woke me up. A strong voice like Chris' is hard to sleep through. Fuck, he's awake. I must've slept all the way through the night. Kuza squeezed my shoulder, pulling me in closer to his chest. I glanced up at him, seeing sadness riddling his gorgeous green eyes. He's never seen his best friend become this violent. Neither have I, but it seemed to shake him much more than me.

"I'm going to go make sure Ange is okay." I whispered to him.

Hesitantly, he let go of me. "Okay."

It was for the best that someone intervened. Chris is one of the few people Angelo would never stand up to, no matter what. He doesn't want to pick a fight with his own husband. I guess that's one of the many ways he and I differ. Cautiously, I peered through the curtain that separated the room. Chris was up walking around. Angelo stayed in the corner with his arms wrapped around himself tightly.