Sanity: The Saw Chronicles [C]

Chapter 61 | Persistence

I figure if I go down to the medical wing while Chris is asleep, I'll be fine. Knowing I could be with Kuza, but I wasn't, upset me. Before I went into their room, I stopped to talk with the doctor. He's, like most people in the facility, rather uncomfortable in my presence. It doesn't bother me as much as you'd think it would. I mostly just want to know if I can move Mike yet or not. Despite how weary I make him, he's very cooperative with me. Probably because Ryan has yelled at him several times.

Regardless, he did say I could move him finally if I had help. I texted Josh to come whenever he could. Then I sent a second text, saying that he should wait in the hall. I just remembered that I don't know what I'm walking into. What does he remember now? Does he... Does he remember my betrayal? Or my apology? Has he gotten that far? Fuck, this is going to be painful.

Chris was sedated once again. Ashley sat beside his bed, watching Gotham on her laptop. What else would she, of all people, be watching? She barely glanced away from the screen to notice me. I smiled at her, then quietly continued to the other side of the room. She didn't have any need to stop me. That makes me hope that maybe Kuza isn't mad at me? He was, once again, drawing to keep himself busy.

A smile beamed across his face, though I did see it drag in hesitation for a moment. "You're back." His voice was just above a whisper.

"Yeah, I am. I actually got back a few hours ago but I was so tired from the trip, I had to take a nap. Plus, I also wanted to wait until Chris was asleep." I replied, "How're you feeling?"

"I'm... Good... I'm remembering bad stuff now though." Kuza set his notebook aside. He pulled his legs up to his chest, resting his arms over them.

I sat down on the edge of the bed and placed my hand on his back. "What bad things?" I asked.

He turned his head away, staring out the window. It was night out and snow was falling. Being that Graceland was in the deep south, it was a rarity we ever saw snow. Maybe once or twice a year. "I remember us fighting somewhere. I can't remember where though. Then there's a big gap of stuff I can't remember... Then I remember you being sick in bed and me apologizing for hurting you, but I don't remember what I did... I know I felt really bad about it though."

"Do you remember anything after that?"

He nodded, "We were put back in prison, then they let us out. And we live here now. I don't really remember exactly why that happened though. It's like... I can remember the general idea of things, but I can't remember the details. I know you have someone else now though."

"I did marry someone," I gently pulled the stray hairs out of his face, "But do you remember why I'm with you now?"

"Not really. I can remember us having sex together, and I know I had someone else. I just can't... I can't connect the dots. It's like I'm missing pieces to a puzzle." He explained.

I gave him a sweet kiss on the lips, "It'll come back in time. The girl you keep remembering, Rayne, you guys broke up. My husband and I did too. We're better now, but he understands that you need me much more than him right now. Do you remember anything about him? Like his name?"

"It's Ricky." He muttered, "I've seen him in my room before. He doesn't talk to me. He only comes to talk to the others. I hurt him too." Kuza started to get nervous, causing him to pull at the strings on his ripped jeans. When he starts that frantic behavior, it's a sign that we need to change the subject. He's no different than dealing with a mental patient right now. His mind is insanely delicate after what happened.

"You didn't hurt him, Honey. You saved his life." I took his hand in mine, "I know things seem scary right now because you can't understand it all, but I promise, Baby, you're a good person. You have a good heart. That's why I love you."