Ouch...Stop..That hurts..Move..I can't right now...You'll break it...
Those are the things I hear from you daily.. And you know what? They make me feel childish, immature, idiotic, pain in the ass. I try to kiss you, you say I hurt you somewhere, or pressed your hand or leg, I try to hug you, you say you're trying to do something and that I'm bothering you, I try to sit beside you, you tell me I'm pushing the carpet...
Do you have any idea how I feel when you push me away or make that painful face? I feel like an idiot, like I'm guilty, like I hurt you, like I'm the bad guy here.
I learned to love solving rubix cubes because I didn't want you to do it alone. I fell for them after I forced myselfe to solve them.. And then you blame me for ruining your timer.. I try so hard to be there for you every single time like you did for last two years but you're making it real hard..
I know you're kidding sometimes and I know you didn't want to make me cry but others don't.. They don't know the way you joke and they see it completely differently.. That hurts..
I just want you to understand how I feel and see when I'm down and just want to lay down on my bed and spend the whole day crying.. Cause I'm weak and I'm small and fragile and need you to protect me.. Because I can't protect myself.
YOU ARE READING
Diary Of Feelings
Non-FictionWe all have those moments when there's no one we could open up to and we need to get those feelings out of our system. I choose to write them here and some of you might see your not alone or even share your feelings with me.
