I can't go like this anymore.. I've been OK for a very long time now and I need to stop. I don't need to stop being OK I just need to stop... look around.. see where I got myself.I keep helping, or at least trying to help everyone around me. I keep putting them first and I forgot to check how I'm doing.
I told them to not care about other people, to save some emotion for themselves and those who matter most to them... I told them that.. and then I did the opposite, I cared about everyone and everything. I forgot about my feelings, my needs, my obligations.. And now I'm reading a sign on my heart that says ''dead battery'' .. And I know that I can't take a break.. at least not a break from everyone.
I haven't showered properly for days, my hair is dirty like New York's sidewalk, I haven't shaved, I can't sleep at night so I sleep during the day, I'm always tired, I haven't eaten anything for two days simply because I forgot to, I have a headache from everything I've heard in the past couple of days, and the worst thing is.. I don't even know how I got here!
I have no idea how I brought myself to this place. I used to have no friends, spend all my free time with my boyfriend and watching movies with happy endings.
Now I have four best friends, each one of them in different problems, I have red cross, I have school, training, a friend in another country who I miss constantly, and a bunch of other obligations and worries.
I just need to breathe some fresh air and not see anyone I know for a while because I wanna be the old me again.. the happy, laughing and positive me..
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Diary Of Feelings
No FicciónWe all have those moments when there's no one we could open up to and we need to get those feelings out of our system. I choose to write them here and some of you might see your not alone or even share your feelings with me.
