Life As Melanie

Chapter 16

*Laying in the bed*

Karina Pasian: *sings* I'm 16 & I shouldn't have to feel like this.

I swear it feels like I'm stuck in a never ending black hole! Was I wrong for telling my father to leave? Is it my fault that I feel abandoned? It's not my fault how I feel inside.

I just know I'm not gonna be able to make it at Milton high tomorrow.

Seeing Misty & being talked about is the last thing I need right now, so I guess I'll just stay home!

*cellphone rings*

Jamal: What's up baby?

I just love how he comes right on time!

Me: *sounding down* Hey baby

Jamal: What's wrong?

Me: Nothing, just got a lot on my mind...

Jamal: Don't you lie to me!

I hate when he does that shit! He always seems to know when something is up, and he won't let it go until I tell him!

Me: It's just...Jamal my father showed up out the blue today!

Jamal: What?! Melanie you're joking right?!

Me: No!

Jamal: Well, what happened?

Me: I told him to leave!

Jamal: Why would you do that?!

What does he mean why would I do that?! I was angry that's why! Jamal should be on my side!

Me: What does he want with me now?! He had all these years to come back, but now all of a sudden he wants to come back into MY life?!

Jamal: Melanie get your head out of your ass! Not everything is gonna go your way! I know you feel like your father abandoned you, but now he's here to make that up to you & you won't give him a fair chance just because you're angry! Let the past stay in the past Melanie!

I hate when he gets on his "Dr. Phil" shit! How can he not see why I told him to get out?!

Me: Jamal you're my man not his! You're supposed to be on my side defending me!

Jamal: Melanie your side is not always the right side!

Me: *I start to get angry & ignores what he says* I'm not coming to school tomorrow!

Jamal: Whatever Mel, I just need you to think about what I said! I love you, goodnight...

*the phone hangs up*