Life As Melanie

Chapter 61

At that very moment my whole world came crashing down on me. How could the man I loved, cherished, cared for, and that I literally was there for thru sickness & health, all without a ring, betray me like this? How could he even open his mouth to tell me he loved me when he really didn't?

It just feels like my father abandoning me all over again. The feeling of not being good enough for somebody. Not only did Jamal break my heart, but he also took away the reason that mine was still beating. What do I do now?

*knock at the door*

Nurse: *yells* Miss Melanie I'm coming in!

*Nurse walks over to my side*

Nurse: How are you feeling today my dear?

Me: *sighs* I don't know what I feel...numb.

Nurse: Can I talk to you on a more personal level?

What could she possibly say that could make me feel better? My child is gone, and her father is the reason. What could you say to make that type of pain go away?

Me: *sits up in bed* sure...

Nurse: I know what happened here today feels like there will be no tomorrow, but do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Me: I do, but...

Nurse: But what?

Me: Some things can be prevented.

Nurse: Like what? What happened today? *pauses* What happened today? You can be honest with me.

Me: *cries* I didn't deserve any of this!

Nurse: *holds me* Baby calm down & just talk to me.

Me: Jamal slept with my sister, I just found out she was my sister. I went to his house to see why he was ignoring me and acting so distant. When I walked in she was there barely with any clothes on, and so was he. I instantly reacted off of anger, then Misty and I started to tumble. She pushed me and that's when everything happened. 

Nurse: Now baby girl I want you to think about what you just told me. Sometimes the things that happen for a reason aren't always good. This whole time you came to the hospital to see that young man, be by his side, and loved him unconditionally. All for him to betray you and leave you all heart broken? Not to mention you've now lost your child. Don't you see? God is giving you a second chance. A second chance to do this the right way. I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby girl I really am, but if you would've had that baby you would have to deal with his presence forever, and never would really have the full opportunity to move on.  Miss Melanie you're a beautiful, bright, loving, and caring girl. You deserve nothing but the best, do you hear me?

Me: *crying* yes mam

*Nurse reaches for a hug*

Nurse: *looks into my eyes* You're gold baby girl, so don't you ever let anybody and I mean not anybody treat you like silver!

*Nurse gets up and walks out*