Diana

Chapter 43 - Psycho

HARRY'S POV

After Liam told me Simon's warning to me, I felt scared. What if my mom and the rest of my relatives will be dissapointed because of my rare behavior? Is it because that I was too rough because Diana was asleep for a month now? I thought that's the case. After a day of being worried of his threat, I still didn't get over it, as if that someone is going to murder me when I get too rough of my behavior.

Moments later, cuts were around my thighs and arms. Making myself weaker than I have ever imagined. Blood stains over the sheets, dying over the stinging pain that chills down my spine. Moans left my mouth, moans of pain. My face twisted because of the pain that tenses my body, I reached for the small towel and covered my cuts as I abruptly sobbed. Is it because of Diana? I controlled myself; the cuts, the rough behavior, the drugs and the everything. I feel uncontrolled, as if a psychotic demon was controlling me all day long when Diana was diagnosed in comatose. 

"Harry please stop." I spoke to myself. "Stop."

"STOP!!" I screamed, realized that I broke the whole silence. 

I looked over the window, the sun setting as I sighed, trying to calm myself down and try my best to forget everything and relax for a little while. I was really stressed for the whole month, and it's getting cold since it's November and Louis' birthday will be for a few weeks. He's turning twenty-two and time does run so fast and it's pretty sad that he's getting older and getting more mature among all the years of having that amazing and hyper sense of humor. However, I won't lose this endless support on him. Since I am his friend, his brother and his pal. I will never ditch him away from my life, despite of argues and shouts, we really can't fight forever. There will be a day that both of us are going to have better lives, to understand each other rather. Moreover, he really isn't the guy who is playing 'Hard-To-Get' to a person, he was like understandable and forgivable. Except when he said that I totally and completely unforgivable. And it was when my heart shattered to pieces and made my world upside down, he never said that to me before, he all said that it's all right and he has got my back. 

I opened the door, my feet touching the cold floor as I slowly walk to the stairs, the whole flat was quiet. Once I arrived on the living room, I saw Louis' tall figure. A plain t-shirt was underneath a thick brown coat, skinny jeans and simple comfortable shoes. He didn't bring out a smile, however, he let out a nod. He walks near me, a small smile flashed on me and I smiled back. "Harry," he stops. "I know that I'm fucked up and I'm sorry about it, I think I was wrong about it, I think I don't have the business to tell everything and explain everything that you should do right for Diana. And I hope that you learned your lesson from now on, Diana was just the most fragile girl that you have ever date, and I feel sorry for her when she was diagnosed in comatose plus she was destroyed for the rest of her childhood years and teenage years. I just hoped that you're going to do your best to change her and to make her convince that she doesn't deserve to be depressed and to be locked. She deserves a boy will love her truthfully and worthily."

"Louis," I stopped and hugged him. "Thank you."

"We can't fight forever, Haz." He pats my back. "You're just very. . . You know, very basic on love."

"Stop it," I chuckled as he gives out a small laugh. "Louis, um, how's Eleanor?"

"Oh, yes she's fine." He smiles, proudly. "Well, I'm having a small problem actually. . ."

"Well, I'll be proposing her next week on a surprise, could you help me, pal?" He asks, and I smiled. 

"Oh, sure." My heart shattered to pieces. "Besides, I don't have much plans for next week." 

"All right," he smiles. 

 It's nothing better to be with Louis all hour long, however, Louis is planning to propose Eleanor next week, which makes my heart break. But, I will never stop supporting them, though. Come on, they've been dating for years now. They loved each other by the time they met, Eleanor as a fan and Louis as a part of the biggest boyband in the whole world. 

Shayne called me abruptly, answering it right away perhaps she has news for Diana in the hospital. "Hello?" I spoke.

"Harry, you won't believe this," she stops at the midsentence. "Diana is awake! I mean, her eyes are all open now and she really can't speak much!" 

"Oh shit, oh my god." Diana is awake? Fuck, my life has been completed. "Oh my god. I'm going there, wait for me." 

"What's the news?" Louis asks, intrigued.

"Diana's awake." I grinned.

***

"Where's Diana?" I asked Shayne.

"The doctor changed her room on the third floor since she is all awake now." She smiles and opened the door, seeing her eyes open. 

"Diana," I smiled, leaving a small kiss on her forehead. "I've missed you so much, I'm glad that you're back again."

"She couldn't hear, feel or speak, Harry. That's the bad news." Shayne tells me and I sighed. "You should let her stay on bed, and learn her to speak or walk."

"I will." I smiled and kissed her lips. "Diana, do you know how much I loved you, right?"

I held her hand, finally granting my wishes. A little smile flashes me, making my heart melt for the first time. I grabbed a seat, sliding my fingertips on her arms. Her eyes full of happiness. "Diana, oh my God." I said, no words out of my mouth, though. "Diana, I really missed you; your eyes, your breath, everything about you. I can't believe that you're unexpectedly awake. I will never let you go ever again."

She didn't speak a word, but only a small voice, grasping my hand around hers gently as she tries to squeeze it tight. A small smile curved her lips, making me on tears all of the sudden. 

*2 Weeks Later* 

"Oh my," She speaks, finally her words coming out of her mouth. "I, I cannot do this."

"Yes you can, Diana." I smiled at her. 

"Well, I'm glad that she already has the ability to speak right away. Some patients are learning for a month or so," the doctor comments. "Oh well, it's time for me to go, Mr. Styles." He said, eventually shaking my hand and left.

"Diana, you just need to walk. Plus, I'm here to carry ya." I reassured her. "Just for the boy that has loved you for a month and never gave up for you?"

"Um, okay." She nodded. "But my feet are dumb."

"It's numb, Diana." I laughed. "Don't worry, you're still learning."

She hooks her arm on my shoulders and she stands up from the bench, trying to unfreeze her numb feet and started walking. I let go of her, making sure that she's in balance. But suddenly, she falls but I immediately grabbed her arm; pulling her up again and carried her bridal style, bringing her back to the bench. "I love you," I whispered.

"Forever." She smiles. 

"How much do you miss me?" I asked.

"I really can't count it though. But, I missed you so much." She said. 

"Diana, after all those weeks of waiting, I finally can speak to you." I admit. "Finally, no nightmares and no everything."

"Nightmares? You've got nightmares?" She asks, intrigued. "What are nightmares?"

"Nightmares are when you dream that you really didn't like, that you really don't want to happen in real life. . . Nightmares are making you more scared, making you more worried to your loved one." I sighed. 

"Harry, what happened when I was asleep? When I was gone?" She asks.

"I was. . ." I gulped. "I just waited for you, looked at you and hoped that you can still stay with me until we grow old." I lied.

"Oh," she nodded. "Well, you don't need to cry anymore. I'm already here." She places a beautiful grin that makes me smile, hugging her tightly, flashbacks spinning on my mind; the sex, the kiss, the fight and everything that happened when Diana wasn't awake. 

And I hope that no one will tell it to her. No one. 

Heeey guys! Sorry if it's a short chapter. Lol. HAPPY NEW YEARR! :D I really had a great year guys. :3 Uggggh <3 thank you for 7k reads btw! :) Big love!!