Diana

Chapter 51 - Diana's Confined

Harry 

"What?!" I gasped over her reply. "She can't be!"

"She's experiencing heart failure." Jullianna added, my heart sinking more. "She's in a hospital in Philippines and the boys reserved a flight for us next week. Nina haven't heard the news yet so we better hide the news before the media's going to find it out. I'm scared, Harry. I don't want you hurt by Nina's gestures, honestly."

"Will she be okay?" I asked her.

"She'll be fine." She reassures me and I sighed, I hope that she really is all right out there. "I better get going, bye." She hung up after.

My heart skipped a beat when I discovered that she was expriencing Heart Failure for a couple of days and it isn't okay for whatsoever. Frankly, this is a huge struggle between Diana and I's connection. I thought it's all messed up right from the start when everything was all cluttered; when I kissed Taylor and had sex with Leslie, speaking of which, I wonder if Leslie's doing fine now. I hope that she still didn't erase me out of her memory, that scares me . . . a lot. I have to admit, it's really full of anxiety and depression when someone is trying to forget me. And, Diana's doing that to me, she was trying to forget me. But, gladly, she really can't. And, I will never forget her forever. She's going to stay right in my heart until the day that I'm already struggling.

After a week, I got back to the Philippined together with Jullianna and drove all the way to the hospital where Diana was confined. I was nervous, I'm not going to lie. Once we arrived, my heart sank when I entered Diana's room. She was asleep, however, her eyes are barely open. But, it grew a little bit wide when she saw me. I run to her, as her palm cupped my cheek. Until the minute came, she cried. "Shh, it's all right." I shushed her, trying to calm her down and wiped the tears that she put out. "I'm staying with you until the day that you're struggling, you know that, right?"

"Yeah . . ." She placed a little smile, she was weak. . . very weak. 

"How are you feeling?" I asked her, I feel like my heart's squeezing of the tension. 

"I'm not that fine, I feel like that I'm out of breath." She laughed. "But, I'm pretty fine."

"You can do this, right?" I asked her.

"I can do this, trust me." She reassures me. "You said that you're going to love me until the day you're struggling, right?"

"Well, despite that I'm being physically suffering, will you still love me?" She asks me, her eyes look hurt.

"Diana, I will always love you." I told her, a tear falling from my eye and I nodded, and look back at her. "Please don't leave me, okay?"

"It's fine, Haz." She chuckled. "Don't cry." 

"I'm sorry about that." I chuckled, I tried to be alright, but I ended up being broken. 

"Excuse me, Mr. Styles." A doctor entered, and, a great timing, my eyes aren't really bloodshot when I cried. "May I talk to you for a little while, sir?"

When I got up, we went outside. "What is it, Doc?" I asked. 

"Mr. Styles, she's experiencing Heart Failure and. . ." He trailed off. "She's only going to live for a couple of weeks, her heart isn't strong enough since she had experienced the Addison's disease, which, unexpectedly, can lead to Heart Failure." 

"Is that true?" I asked, my heart breaking. "Is there a way to cure her? Can she stay here much longer?"

"Yes, sir, she's having her operation on Monday." 

"Well, is that settled? No bad news?" I asked, I hope that's it.

"Unfortunately, sir, the bad news is. . ." He trailed off. "There will be a possibility when her body can't take the pain, and she can lose her heart beat and . . . pass away." 

"I." I stuttered. "That's true?"

"Yes, sir." He nodded and he walked away.

I slammed my fists to the wall, regardless of the cuts appearing over my knuckles. I went inside, and I saw Diana asleep. She can't pass away so fast. She's as sweet as an angel, and I will never let her pass away. However, the good thing is, that she can rest in peace. I mean, she can be happy. I hate it when she's hurt, I don't like her hurt. Seriously. 

By the time she woke up, she felt very weak. But, it really didn't matter to her so much. She just cared about her safety in the hospital, she was, well, in fact, paranoid over Nina lately. She was threatening Diana. Thus, she went a little bit of paranoid. And, me, as her boyfriend, is as pissed as well. Diana wasn't like that, she never did that to the girls that I dated. She's just a shy girl, a very, very shy girl to make it precise and cute. 

Perhaps when I didn't jump in her life, I think she won't be in this kind of struggle. I think it's all my fault; devastating her life and putting it on jeopardy, as well. While, Shayne, on the other hand, should've not come in her life, as well. I mean, I'm not accusing her that she ruined everything about her. I mean, I think she should've not force her to be with me. I think when she brought me to Paris, I actually really didn't like to go. In fact, I already found someone . . . It was Mackenzie, Macky is her nickname. But, I guess that my world turned upside down when I already met Diana. She's better than Macky, she's kind and perfect. Humble also. Moreover, I won't compare them by their looks.

Indeed that Macky was beautiful, she was the girl that I met when she bumped me. It's like how Nina and I met. But, in a different way, I can't explain it really. I think the first impression that made my heart skip a beat, is Macky's hazel eyes. However, unfortunately, I only saw her once. And it's okay for me, I already moved on, anyway.

I thought that I would change Diana's life . . . In a good way, but, it turned out that I jeopardize it without seeing it or feeling it. Is that love? Is that what love really means? Or perhaps that I couldn't love a person? I suck on relationships . . . Now I realize.

"Mum," I stopped. "Diana's confined."

"Why?" She stuttered. 

"She has heart failure." I sighed.

"Oh, my God." She gasped. "Are you alright? Is she alright?"

"Both of us are fine." I sighed. 

"How about Nina? Is she okay in Paris?" She asks, man, she's very worried.

"Yeah, she's fine. She didn't call me for the past few days, I really don't know why exactly." I smirked, sadly. "I think she's just busy."

"Oh, you're healthy, aren't ya?" She asks.

"Yes, mum, I'm fine." I laughed. "I love you, mum."

"I love you too, honey." I just can see that smile on her face. "I better be going, hun. Bye." And, she hung up.

Diana, I love you. 

Mum, I love you.