Diana

Chapter 28 - Don't Let Me Go

 ✿ Harry's POV ✿

I grabbed my notebook and a pen, planning a lyrics for this song that I've been thinking for the past few hours. Lot's of thoughts spins around my mind as I write it down quietly, my penmanship printed at the clear notebook.

Diana, let me be the one to light a fire inside your eyes. You've been lonely you don't don't even know me but I could feel you crying.

Diana, let me be the one to lift your heart and save your life. I don't think you even realize, baby you'll be saving mine.

My tears finally falls down and roll down my cheeks, I'm not ready for this.. for all of this. She can't let go, she can't ungrasp the rope, the rope that I've been holding to save her and pull her up once again. But then her grip around the rope loosens which is Diana's condition that she is encountering right now; the comatose. I'm too late, I need to wait for years for her to wake up. But I will never actually stop loving her, giving up my hope. I will never let the rope go, forever, despite that it hurts, I will never let it go. I will save her, I will save her what Dave did to her just to move on and also her condition that she is encountering right now. I know that she is still my girlfriend beause she will always be. 

Maybe I wasn't worth it in Diana's heart whatsoever, maybe I wasn't good enough for her. I just entered and ruined her life, she has full faith on me, she expects so much but then I ruined it.. I ruined all of it, it's basically my fault. 

I grabbed my phone, opening my gallery and our pictures are left in my phone. I look at her, her beautiful face. I swipe my thumb and our pictures are shown, I missed her despite she's only gone for a day or so. But what if she wants to have a rest? To rest in peace, but I don't want her to abandon this world because she still haves me and Shayne too. 

Her left clothes was in my closet so I picked her clothes and her sweet scent fills my senses. I hugged it tightly, pretending that she is here right in front of me, her arms wrapped around mine. I tried to pretend that I'm touching her, touching her skin as she shivers by my fingertips sliding at her back, moaning my name a couple of times and kissing neck. I should've not got in a relationship with Taylor, I should've not ended up arguing with Diana and then now she is experiencing coma.  

Shattered glasses and books cluttered all over the wooden floor. I curled up on bed, my eyes never leave Diana's picture on my phone gallery, the sun sets and I don't have any idea how many hours I have been in this flat, it's like I want to kill myself and be with her for the rest of my life. It's only been a day but I missed her so much, it's like it's been years that I never have spoken to her. I think without her, I am nothing, nothing like a worthless manwhore and that's what the media is illustrating since I kiss more than a girl for three years of being well-known band member of One Direction. I really have to admit, half of my life, I actually don't want to be popular whatsoever. I feel like, this is not my life, this is not my life that I've been wishing for. I want to work in the bakery, with my old band, White Eskimo and enjoy being simple. Well, that was half of my life. But this, what I gave to myself was worth it. Technically worth it.

Louis' name flashes through my screen, a groan releasing my dry lips. I just stayed quiet, waiting for it until it goes to voicemail. The moon was finally up, another miserable evening I will be spending tonight. Louis calls once again as I decided to switch it off, standing up from the bed and pick the broken glasses up, a cut builds up on my hands as I pick them up, the broken glass that cut my hands leaves a small sting. I put it back to the floor, twisting the door handle and it twists open. I shove my shoes on, just giving myself a cold walk at the park, thinking about the downs not the ups. I can't underestimate her, since she's my life. I built her life, little by little, I arranged her broken pieces and it was crushed by this condition that I or we are experiencing this minute. I thought this will be straightforward? I thought that our relationship will be easy? I guess I talked too soon, maybe I was all wrong. 

I changed my mind to go to the hospital, to visit Diana for a little while. To enter my Princess Diana, I know that she is going to stay alive, to stay alive and live with me, I know that I can bring her crushed pieces back again, because I know that I can do it. I saw Shayne at the seat, with an elderly man, who could he be? I walked towards him, a depressed expression greets me. "Who are you?" I asked him.

"I'm Diana's dad." The man responds. "What happened to my daughter?"

"What?" I answered quickly. "After all you did to her, humiliate her, abandoned her, and abused her you came here?"

"I know." The man nods. "I just want to visit my little girl, you are the boyfriend, right?"

"Yes, I am." I answered, shoving my hands in my pocket. "I'm sorry for being rude to you... I just.."

"It's alright." The man smiles. "I know how you're feeling, kid."

"What happened to Diana exactly?" He asks, worriedly.

"She got to a car accident and now she is experiencing comatose." I said, looking at their wrinkly eyes. "She can sleep for months, for weeks or for years and it can cause death."

"What?" Diana's father gasped desperately. "It's all my fault."

"No, it's not." I assure him. "It's mine, I think I wasn't worth it in her life, I should've not entered her life because all I did is to crush her without realizing it. Maybe there will be a better man for her, to treat her properly. Unlike me, I think I wasn't worth it being with her whatsoever. Maybe a boy something has similarities like her can love her. Not me, I think we're different enough to be a couple."

"No, you aren't son." The man shakes his head. "You treated her truthfully and genuinely, maybe there's some time that we're out of control, out of control of everything. We do such different and odd things right in front of our partners."

"Yeah." I nod, awkwardly. 

"Is Diana inside?" He asks.

"Yes, she is." I respond.

"Can I get in?"

"Yes, you could." I sat down and he enters the hospital room.

I saw Shayne, she looks at me. Her pale face releasing a gasp on my lips. "Shayne, I.." I gasped and look at her, grabbing her chin and her eyes darted to mine. "Shayne."

"It's okay." She chuckles. "I'm just experiencing complicated things." She shrugs.

"I know that I ruined your best and only friend and I'm sorry." I said.

"No, it's not your fault, Harry." She nods. "Maybe she needs a rest, to have her time above us, to be an angel. To watch over us, maybe this is the time that she needs to rest, to be finally free by her chains. No matter how many we can build her up, nothing is happening. Maybe when she's above, she can finally change. To be free."

"One person leaves the world but I know that a new angel enters." She assures. "But let's just pray that she will stay alive and breathe, no matter how many years will it take. I know that she will be with us... forever."

 "Yeah." I nod. "I hope so."

The man gets out of the room as I stand up from the seat. I walk towards him, a shy smile placed around my lips. "What's your name?"

"Jack, Jack Hernandez." He introduces himself.

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I went inside the hospital room and I saw Diana, my chest suddenly sores by pain. Wherever I see her, it feels like my heart is burning, I grabbed her hand once again, my eyes scampered to the heart monitor, her heart still beating. I kissed her knuckles, her palm cupping my cheeks. "I know you can hear me, Diana." I said, hoping that she could. "You know that I love you, you know that I deserve you. However, I sabotaged you, I cheated on you. I know that there's a guy better than me, who can treat you better. I love you so much."

"Sorry for everything." I add. "Please forgive me."

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