Silence (Niall Horan)

Chapter 8

This is too much for me in one day. The fight this morning and now this. I think I might pass out again.

"Okay, we're here. Are you okay now?"

I nod and unclick my seatbelt. I get out of the car and feel the cold hair hit my face. It is still raining and suddenly, that rain is no longer beautiful. It is dark and full of fear.

We walk into the hospital and head to the reception. I look around too see if I can find a familiar face.

"Mam'. How may I help you?" the lady repeats.

"Um, I'm here too see Carl Martinez." I want to cry again.

"Oh. One second." she gives me a warm smile.

"Down the hall, to your left in room 104."

I practically run down the hall and I feel Zayn at my heels. I panic when I can't find 104 and realize I have already passed it.

"Do you want me to wait out here?" Zayn asks.

I shake my head and grab his hand. I don't know what I will see when I open that door and I need someone right at my side in case I pass out again.

I open the door and see my mom looking out the window. My father is on the hospital with way too many tubes and wires hooked up to him. I search for my sister but she is no where to be found.

"Mom?" I whisper.

She turns too face me and her eyes are red and full of tears. She looks very exhausted.

"Where's Diana?"

"She went down with that blonde boy. Niall?"

"Who's this?" she looks at Zayn.

"This is Zayn. He's a friend of mine."

She smiles and turns to face my father. The only noise is the machine showing his heart rate. I don't know if it's only me but I hear the beat getting slower. I turn to look at Zayn and his arm goes around my waist. He pulls me in closer and rest his jaw on my head.

The room seems to be getting smaller and with leas air. I walk towards my mother and hug her. I know she is blaming herself. She thinks that all the fights and the thought of the divorce caused this. I hold her hand for what seems to be hours. She has not stopped crying. Not once.

The beats stop and I hear a long "beep". I don't know what to do. I look at my mom and she is now a mess. She runs over to the bed and starts to shake my father.

"Honey, no! Come back to me! Don't leave me!" She yells.

The door flies open and four nurses and a doctor storm to the bed. They open my dad's chest up and begin to get ready to bring him back. The doctor looks at me. I know he is telling me he can't do anything. That he is long gone. I nod at him and he whispers something into one of the nurse's ear. She turns to look at me and nods at the other nurses.

"Why are you stoping? No! Bring him back! Now!" My mom screams at the doctor.

"I'm so sorry. There's nothing we can do." he looks down.

My mother falls to the floor and begins to sob. Her hands go to her head and she begins to pull on her hair. The doctor gives me one more look and walks out the door. I look up at Zayn and he takes me in both arms and hugs me. I begin to sob louder than my mom. Zayn rubs my back in comfort and the door opens.

"What's going on?" Diana asks.

She looks over to my father and begins to scream.

"No! Dad!" She runs to the bed. Zayn lets me go and I walk over to her. She turns to look at me and hugs me quickly. This is what I didn't want to see. She won't get through this.

I turn to face Niall and he is standing a few feet away from Zayn. I can tell they are both uncomfortable but they are behaving. For me?

They both stare at me and I don't know what to do next. I don't know who to hug first. I walk over to Niall and grab his hand.

"Thank you for calling me and taking care of her." I look at Diana. I hug him and he kisses my forehead.

"And thank you for driving me here. If I was alone, I don't think I could have moved."I hug him.

They both leave and I look back at my mom. She is now sitting on the couch and is looking out the window again. The rain is getting stronger and darker. My sister is sitting in a corner of the room on the floor. Her hands and in her face and her dress is wet from all her tears.

I can't be here another second. I walk out of the room and head to the parking lot. I spot Zayn as he is opening his car door.

"Rebecca?" he looks up at me.

"Could you take me to get my car?" I ask him.

"Of course. Get in."

The drive seems like forever. The rain has calmed but the skies are still dark. My head is pounding and my stomach is sick. The car is silent and I can hear Zayn's breathing. I count up to 100 breaths and start over each time.

After what seems forever, we are back at the cafe shop. I turn to look at Zayn and he is staring at me. I try my best to smile but I just can't.

"Thank you for everything." I finally say.

"No problem. Are you sure you can drive home?"

"Yeah, I'll be fine."

I get out of the car and shut the door behind me. I start walking in the direction I parked my car.

"Rebecca!" I hear Zayn yell.

I turn to face him and he is jogging towards me. He reaches me and just as I'm about to say something, he takes my face in his hands and kisses me. It is slow and passionate. I pull away and he looks at me confused.

"I'm sorry. I can't do this right now."

"I understand." he smiles.

"Plus, I'm going out with Niall."

His eyes drop and he backs away two steps from me. I lied too him. I'm not really going out with Niall. We haven't made anything official but I still feel terrible.

"Oh. I'll see you around." He turns on his heels and walks away.

I do the same and head to my car. I unlock the door and climb inside. I look in the mirror and gasp. I look terrible. My mascara has run down my cheeks and my eyes are red. I grab a baby wipe and remove all of my make up.

I need to be strong. Not only for me but for my family. Mostly my sister. This day is the start of something new.

( Sorry this is so short! I'm visiting my family and we have been all over the place all the time. I will try to update more later on today! )