"I'm a girl Ni."
Niall was beyond shocked and that wasn't an understatement. At first he thought it was a joke or something but then Louis didn't crack a single smile.
His expression was nothing close to joking. Instead his face held a solemn expression.
" You're serious? " Niall said almost to breathy to hear.
Louis didn't trust his voice. So he only looked down at his lap and nodded shamefully,
"Uh , oh. I mean... how." Niall said. He was full of questions but his muddled thinking only allowed a few words to be said.
"H-how what?" He replied almost inaudibly .
"How's it possible , how does Harry feel about it , How'd he figure it out , just everything just talk to me." He said.
Niall sensed the tension in Louis' body so he started rubbing circles on his back to comfort him.
Louis cleared his throat suddenly.
"Well ... I was born this way I guess. I was raised as a girl up to the age of 8 but I started realising how much I despised of being Louisa . I knew I was d-different. Hell , I was 14 without boobs. But , by the age off 9 I started living as a boy. . I basically avoided a lot of stuff like ; going swimming with friends , locker rooms , sex and changing in front of people." He paused for a short period but then continued.
"H-Harry and I've been close mates since grade school. I did a good job hiding it from Haz and Zi. But I started gaining strong romantic feelings for Harry. The love was so strong that I ended up telling him. He was shocked at first but he automatically accepted it , to my surprise. We've had sex but only an-aanally. Surprisingly he's never seen it . We've only had sex three times and each time. I tell him not to look." he explained
Nialls throat had went dry. Louis had shared such intimate and private information with him.
But , even though Lou had shared allot , he still had so many questions. But at the same time , he didn't want to over do it.
"Why not look?" He questioned tentatively.
"I'm ashamed I guess." He sighed tears threatening to fall once more.
"Why ... I mean. I think it's alright to have .. that ." He said pointing to Lou's crotch area awkwardly.
"That?" he scoffed sarcastically.
"Lou I didn't mean it that way , and you know that." Niall sighed
"I'm sorry Ni. I don't know what to do in just ugh ! I dunno stuck. I can't deal with any of this."
Niall only nodded. He could see how insecure Louis was about the whole situation. It saddened him.
"I'm so ashamed of it. I wouldn't even let my mum see. It's like a phobia. I'm s-so sc-scared." He said finally breaking down.
"Shh Shh Shh." he said quietly as he scooped Louis small frame closer to him.
All of it added up. Harry had made allot of slip ups so if he had just put two and two together he could have figured this out a long time ago. For instance , Harry would talk about how Louis was cramping 4 days each month. You and I both know what that means.
No wonder why Louis had such a curvy figure and hairless body. It all made sense now. But at the same time he's still very much shocked.
"I'm such a freak." He sobbed breaking Niall out of his deep thoughts.
If it was one thing Niall hated , it would be people feeling lowly of themselves or thinking they were indifferent because of their uniqueness.
"No the hell you aren't ! Don't you ever say that again!" Niall boomed unintentionally causing Louis to jump slightly.
