Have you ever seen someone in so much pain , it caused physical pain to you.
Have you ever seem someone mourning so badly that you were about to touch their shoulder out of an act for comfort but you pull away scared that they'll shatter like glass that fell from a high shelf.
I can't began to tell you how many times I tried getting him to calm down and stop hyperventilating. The first couple of times it worked but then minutes later he break down once again.
I told him "Zayn is ok, he's a strong lad. The police are searching for him and they will find him. He loves you , he'll come back." But I barley convinced myself. Something was especially off about this particular situation.
Zayn is like my best friend & little brother . So him being missing and possibly hurt , kills me inside. It feels like i might explode because here I am trying to keep it together for Niall but in the inside I'm as hurt as him.
"We've searched hours and hours. By foot by car but I've yet to find him. I'm gonna fucking kill him. I know .... I fucking know it was Josh and when I find him I swear I'm going to beat him to the pulp." Niall said almost in a growl. The veins in his neck shown as he clenched his jaw.
"Calm down. I'm devastated just as you are. But you've got to keep it together. Staying strong is the only way we'll find him." I said in my most comforting tone.
"Don't FUCKING tell me to calm down." Niall hissed loudly.
I flinched , instantly regretting staying here. Maybe this was a bad idea. My intentions were to watch over and help him but.
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"I-I think I should go." Louis whispered shakily
"Wait L-Lou. I'm sorry." he said pitifully as he reached out to grab my hand.
"I-I ... just don't go.I really don't wanna be alone." Niall sighed. He tried to think of a valid excuse to why he stopped me but he winded admitting it to Louis and himself.
Louis sighed and sat back down on the bed.
"This is all crazy . I can't believe he's gone either. But Niall , we've got to stick together. We can't be snapping at one and another. But I'm here for you I think you should rest." I said patting Nialls head awkwardly.
Niall chuckled . "Thanks Lou. But I've got to take a shower first , I feel disgusting." He said stretching.
"Oh.. now that you mention it , I need to shower too. Have you got an extra shirt or something?" Louis asked
"Possibly but um... It'll probably be best if you use one of Z-Zayns." He said uncomfortably.
He didn't think it'd be appropriate for Louis to be walking around in his over sized shirt. But in all honestly , Louis didn't see anything wrong with it.
"Oh? okay well ...which drawer would it be in?" Louis asked as he approached the dresser .
"Em .... One of the drawers that close aren't folded up in I guess." he shrugged nearly blushing out of embarrassment , ashamed of his messiness
Sure enough as he searched through the drawers he found some that had clothes all jumbled up and then their were some drawers were all of the clothes were folded neatly.
He reluctantly grabbed a random t-shirt. He then slowly put it back down.
Niall cleared his throat and then spoke.
"Is.. everything alright?"
"I can't put this on. I can't put on the clothes of my missing best mates. It feels so wrong. I can literally smell the cologne I bout him from the previous Christmas" Louis said with and exasperated sigh
