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I wake up expecting to be in the usual room I've slept in for weeks. But instead I feel even more uncomfortable. I try to sit up but I'm restricted. when trying to open my eyes , an excruciating pain took over the right side of my face.
My throat was so dry that when I swallowed it felt as if my throat was sticking together and it hurt to indescribable amounts. Though my vision seemed impaired , I felt foreign objects on places like my arms , chest and even in my nose.
You know in the movies when a Person has fainted after a traumatic happening and he's on the verge of waking back up then he hears those voices that are screaming for there loved one to arise . But the voices seem so far away even though the distance is less than a foot away.
I guess you could compare that to what's happening now. It's like the voices are trying to speak to me while I'm in the depths of the sea. The muffled voices became slightly more clear. I could even make out a full sentence.
"I think he's starting to wake."
I started thinking about the baby that rested in my womb. Surely everything is fine. I came up with the conclusion that I am most definitely in the hospital , they should've fixed any faults right?
My mind was racing. The mental list of questions I had seemed to be endless. I felt myself breathing heavy. I felt as if I was missing something , well more than something. I felt like there was a lot I needed to know. I still don't know if I'm really in a hospital , it could be another sick game of Josh's.
I can't remember anything. Where am I?
I was so scared. When I first woke up (I don't know if you would consider this awake) or ... Conscious , I didn't feel uneasy in the slightest bit. I felt reguvinated and in the light.
But now, I felt as if I'm being sucked into a dark and evil tunnel. I felt so alone and confined. I couldn't gain full consciousness and it was terrifying . I started to hear a pestering beep.
** Niall
I sat at his bed side. It was rare if I took my eyes of him. The doctor told us , he no longer needed to be in medical induced comma. He also admitted that most patience were fully responsive by this time. The most signs Sayn would give us is maybe his face , fingers or toes twitching in the slightest way. But I'm grateful for those small actions because matters could have been worse.
The room included Trish , Louis , Harry , A few of his relatives and some other people I didn't know of , in total there was about seven of us. there were 5 cushioned chairs lined up on the wall which was under the small tele that was placed in the right corner of the ceiling . Technically this amount of people was forbidden out of the room but , for some reason they all escaped the nurses scrutiny.
As I sat by his side , his usual quiet breath turned into gasp.
His body jerked up & starting shaking violently. The machine beeped faster and faster .
"Doctor! We need help." Trish screamed as I screamed for help too .
All of the guest were rushed out except for Niall and Trish. Only immediate family were allowed inside of the room any others were supposed to go to the waiting. But Niall wasn't leaving even though he wasn't allowed in there.
"Sir do we have to call security." the nurse said trying to be stern. But you could hear the sadness in her voice.
"He can stay , please. My son needs him." Trish said in a tearful voice.
Before she could even reply. The machine did something that caused everyone's heart to explode with fear.
"Beeeeeeeeeeeep." he flatlined.
"EVERYBODY OUT!" She yelled pressing a red button. Niall and Trish were pulled out of the room having an emotional breakdown.
*
They were informed that Zayn didn't make it. The worlds of everyone in that waiting room that new him collapsed. The normal personalities and happiness were replaced with sadness and mourning.
The waiting room was filled with the hums of Harry and Ed humming silent night.
*
Everyone had there chances to see him before they took him away. Everyone except Niall. His sobs filled the halls as he walked alone to see the love of his life one more time.
His heart was filled anger and sadness.
He oppened the door and the nurse gave a sad smile. She stood by the bed
"I've lost the most amazing man. could you at least have the common courtesy of being alone with him." he said in a hoarse voice.
She left immediately
Niall was in denial , the horrific situation had not yet settled in. He's lost two people in 2 days. It was over bearing. He just wanted to hold his lover. And that's what he did. He found a small spot to fit in the bed and he held him like he'd never get to hold him again. Well he wouldn't.
*
It was past due time for him to leave. He just couldn't let go. He wasn't a very religious person but , he started to pray.
"Dear God , I know I never pray. I never repent. I never attend the church services. I stopped around the time I heard people snickering and mumbling every time I stepped into the church. I remember all of the other teens moving into other seats when I came around and I thought 'is it really true?' Does my created look down at me in shame. From then on , I didn't live by your word I didn't think I would need you. Heavenly Father , I need you. I know you love all of us despite if I love a man , rock or women. But it's hard to believe that when people constantly talk down on me for it. If there is a god , why would you let that happen. Why do you let all these things like rape, death, abuse , starvation , depression and self harm happen. I love him , I'd go to the ends of earth for him. He's young , he'd never been in this situation if it wasn't for me . Take me instead , I've committed more sins than he'd ever think of. I've lost my child and my boyfriend . please. Amen." Niall sobbed begging for gods Mercy.
Zayns body jerked upward followed by painful sounding coughs. "OH MY GOD" he said in disbelief
He rushed to the door screaming for help with all his might. As the doctors entered he was forced out of the room. He slid down the wall absolutely terrified. what's going on , is he alive?
"The prayers of a man like me would never be answered" vs.
"Have faith" the battle within me
