"It's alright to be upset and cry but it's not good to cry and cry without comunicating. I need you to tell me how you're feeling . Please? Rather you know it or not ... it hurts to see you this way. So atleast talk to me Niall."
He's still shivering in my arms. And no , this isn't taking place where we left off . It's the day after actually.
Yesterday i'd fallen asleep for a split second and when I snapped back up (almost falling off the couch) he was gone to his room w/ the door closed. I didn't bother checking on him or anything because more than likely he didn't want ot be bothered.
But today , around 4 maybe . I started for the front room but from my periphials I spotted a figure on the edge of his bed rocking back and forth . I slowly walked backwards to see him with his large pale hands on his face rocking back and fourth and crying almost silently .
I tapped his shoulder softly.
"Nialler is everything alright?" I asked . But as usual , he didn't reply. I figured he was ignoring me because he wanted to be left alone but maybe it was something else . So I tried a different attempt.
" Well maybe you can go sit on the sofa and i'll make us up a nice cup of Yorkshire tea , yeah." I asked while putting my hand on his back urging him to get up.
To my surprise he stood up . He went into his bathroom and washed his hands and stood there . I guess he waiting for me to lead the way. So I headed for the kitchen and made tea as he sat their with puffy eyes looking around.
After I brought the tea and we both took a fair amount of sips I started asking him once again what's wrong. He only broke down and burried his face in my torso crying .
So that brings us to where we are now .
"It's alright to be upset and cry but it's not good to cry and cry without comunicating. I need you to tell me how you're feeling . Please? Rather you know it or not ... it hurts to see you this way. So atleast talk to me Niall." I said
"It h-hurts. It hurts so BAAAD! " Niall cried out.
It scared me .
'Niall what hurts !? Talk to me."
"What they did to me." He whimpered standing up walking back to his room.
I'm not allowing him to do this . I'm so worried and it makes it even worse because he looks so pained.
"Was he like raped or something ! Oh god !" I thought outloud while walking into is room.
I sat on the edge of the bed.
"N-No. My brother , my friends and my gir- I mean e-ex." He said quietly curled up on the large bed.
I looked at him urging him on and finally after what seemed like forever he cracked.
"I-I was I mean my brother and our friends well ... his friends took m-me out to a restaurant b-because I finished UNI and I-I you know , worked really r-really r-really hard and that's not an understatement . We were laughing and everything else and then my girlfriend at the time came randomly . He basically told me the job that I sacrificed everything for was given to someone else . The bad t-thing about it was ... h-he had the authority to give me the position , he new that's all I wanted . That wasn't it ... he gave it to my girlfriend . I know I should've been happy for her but then they told me they w-were together and I she meant so much to me. If that wasn't bad enough he kissed her in front of me and then l-laughed in my f-face . It might seem petty but it ruined me . On top of that , horrible things constantly happened . Including my next girlfriend sleeping with my so called bestfriend. My father laughed in my face when I came home crying to him. So that's when constant sex and cheap relationships took place" Niall finished off his miserable story .
