Love or Desire

Chapter 35

Emma's POV
I was freaking out! When will they come for me? Will they be in disguise? Will it be Neal? Pan? Someone else? I have super hyped paranoia right now. Ruby tapped my shoulder and I nearly punched her in the crotch. I apologized and she said it was okay. Killian wasn't doing any better. He hardly got any sleep last night, and Robin, Brennan, and I were the only people he would talk to. I was worried about him, I don't think I've even seen him this stressed over a football game, and that's saying something. I wanted this to end soon. I missed hanging out with my friends and not having to worry about someone trying to kidnap me. I miss having alone time with Killian and not having to think that someone might make a sex tape out of it. I can't take this anymore. The anxiety is overwhelming. I don't think I can take this anymore. Killian and I had Dad drive him to his house, and then he took me to our house. I FaceTimed Killian as soon as I got to my room.
FaceTiming Killian
Killian: hey Emma,
He said in a tired tone.

Emma: hey baby
We both sounded and looked like crap.

Killian: if anything happens just call me, I have to go
What does he have to do that's so important right now?
Emma: why do you have to go?
He rolled his eyes at me. He fucking rolled his eyes at me.
Killian:because some of us actually have a life that they need to get back to

Emma: why are you being so bitchy?!?!

Killian: why do you need to know where I am and what I'm doing every goddamn second of the day!?!?

Emma: what the hell is your problem!?!? You're acting like a total douche right now

Killian: sorry that I don't live up to your expectations of a perfect person, well guess what. It's hard to be perfect when your girlfriend is a pitiful, unwanted orphan that makes everyone want to hate her
I was shocked and appalled. How dare he talk to me like that! Is that really what he thinks of me? You know what...
Emma: fine Killian, if that's what you think of me, fine. If you'll excuse me, I'm going to go clear my head and try to remember why I wanted to go out with you

Killian: I think it was because you were horny
Why is he like this right now? He's always so nice and sweet. What the actual fuck! He said that we had fucking true love, I'm so naive. I guess I still haven't learned my lesson. I'm meant for a life of misery and pain. I should just end this right now.
Emma: you know what Killian, go fuck your self. Go be the man whore that you are, and fuck everything with two tits and a pussy
I know I had a few tears on my face, but I didn't bother to wipe them away. His face suddenly became very calm, and softened. He looked a little...sorry?
Killian: love, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I'm tired and I'm not thinking straight.

Emma: sorry isn't gonna fix this Killian! I love you and this is how you treat me? After all the promises that you've made me. I'm done with this shit.
And I was dead serious.
Killian: what do you mean done?

Emma: go straighten out your shit, and don't bother trying to find me. I'm running away. Also, we're through
Call Ended
I through my phone in frustration and it shattered into a thousand tiny pieces. I screamed as loud as I could. How could he do this to me? He knows how sensitive I am about that. Didn't he love me? Let me guess, I'm not pretty enough for him. The sobs escaped my throat uncontrollably. I looked like a mess. I had makeup running all over my face and my hair was all knotted. I loved him! I screamed really loudly and Mom and Dad came in. He's right, I'm an unwanted orphan. Not Mom and Dad, Mary and David.

"Emma what's wrong? Are you okay?" David asks. I laughed,

"Because screaming, and looking like shit means that I'm remotely okay,"