Always Out of Reach

Do I need this?

"Joey, I need to talk to you!" I heard my mum shout me. Great, she was probably going to talk about my "mood" again.

"Can't it wait?" I sighed from upstairs. I didn't want to talk to her.

"No! Downstairs now!" She replied.

I sighed and trudged downstairs.

"Make it quick. I have stuff to do."

"Like what? What stuff do you have to do? All you ever do is sit on the computer or your phone and watch stupid people sit in front of cameras."

"They're not stupid." I thought in my head. I didn't say it out our because I knew she was getting upset.

"Sorry...." I said quietly.

"No, we need to do something about this." She said firmly.

"Well I can't just 'be happy' can I?" I said, my sassy side coming out.

"I know..."  My mum said gently. She looked at me with such sadness in her eyes. I'm not surprised to be honest, she's probably dissapointed she ended up with a son like me.
"Which I why I've decided, for your own good, to send you to counselling." She said it quickly like she was nervous for my reaction.

"Oh..." That's all I could say. The thought terrified me. Sitting in a room with a complete stranger, telling them every detail about my life....I dont think so.

"Joey, say something. Are you ok?" My mum said

"I'm fine." I said, then grabbed my coat and phone and ran out of the house.

I didn't know where i was going. I just needed to run.

I got to the town centre and stopped for a rest on a bench near the pond. This was my reality now, having to have counselling. Having to deal with things that I hated talking about.

Suddenly,  I noticed a group of people staring at me. After a while of staring back, I realise it was Hunter and Daniel and all of their group. I didn't think twice,  they couldn't see me like this, I got up and started to walk away. Quickly.

"Joey!" I heard Daniel behind me.
I kept walking.

"Joey!" I felt his hand on my shoulder. I kept facing away from him. "Why are you ignoring me?" He laughed.
I kept facing away from him. "Joey?" He turned me around, revealing my red eyes and tear stained cheeks.

"Oh my God,  Joey what's wrong?" He instantly wrapped his arms around me. I pushed away.

"Nothing." I wiped away my tears. "It doesn't matter."

"Well if you're upset then it matters to me." Why was he so nice?

"It's stupid, you'll think it's stupid." I said, getting shaky again.

"Oh Joey..." he wrapped his arms around me and his time I didn't push away. "You don't have to tell me....it's ok."

"No, it not ok." I said. "Nothing is ever ok!" I pushed away and ran off. As soon as he was out of sight I regretted it. Why was I pushing away the one person who gave a damn about me..?

Authors note:

I think there may have been a  problem with this the first time I posted, sorry. Also IM_SH00K I did see your message but it wouldn't let me reply so just know I'm not ignoring you xx

Thanks for reading
Erin xx