Always Out of Reach

I didn't deserve him...

Everything was numb. As we drove home from the prison I couldn't manage to say a word. What if this man (whoever he was) didn't make it? It was all my fault. My dad hated me. Maybe I shouldn't have pushed him away so much. Maybe I should have just put up with him.

This was all my fault...

"Joey...say something please. What happened in there?" Daniel was looking at me worriedly.

"I....just realised something. My dad actually told the truth for once." I said quietly.

"So...you found out why he did it?" I could tell Daniel was being cautious.

"Ye. I did." He didn't say anything  after that.

"Can...I just go to bed?" I asked weakly when we arrived back at our...Daniel's house.

"Sure." He sighed and pulled me into a hug.

I trudged upstairs and flopped onto the bed. I fell asleep with dark thoughts circling my head.

I was in a dark alley. The streetlamp stared at me, blinding me.

"No." I whipped my head around so I was facing the noise. There was a man....in his mid twenties. He was pinned against the wall, struggling with all his might against a bigger man who had him held against the brick. My dad

"Please..." the man begged. My body was paralysed. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't help.

"You're a faggot." My dad threw him to the floor. I felt the man's head smack against the floor. Suddenly the floor had a red pool on it, the deep liquid trickling into the cracks between the cobbles on the floor.

"Stop...." the man let out a weak breathe.

"Give me one good reason." My dad slurred his words and kicked the man in the gut. The man didn't react, he just lay there. Still. Lifeless. Dead.

Then the man's face was in mine. A few inches away.

"What have you done?" He spat in my face. "This is all your fault..."

"SORRY!" I sat up in bed, sweating yet cold.

"Joey!?" Daniel came rushing in, concern written across his face.

"Daniel." I ran over to him and hugged him. In that moment, all I needed was him. He always made me feel safe.

"Joey...." Daniel pulled me closer.

I didn't deserve him...

Authors note:

Thanks for reading
Erin xx