Always Out of Reach

Kisses

"Daniel, will you marry me?....no. Danny, will you become my husband?....no. Daniel Preda, will you marry me?" I flopped down on my bed in frustration. This was never going to work. Maybe I should have just waited for him to propose to me. Then, why would he propose to me?

This was all too stressful. I was 16. Why was I even worrying about marriage?....but I couldn't help it. I wanted this....so much. I wanted to have Daniel as mine. I wanted to call him my husband and come home to him every day.

It was all Nicole's fault. She was watching some stupid programme about teenagers getting married. It put the idea in my head and then I couldn't get rid of it. I'd planned everything.  The food, the outfits,  the guests, the people who were completely banned from coming! Everything.

What was i even doing? Why was i tmeven thinking about this? Daniel probably didn't even want to marry me. I was his first boyfriend, his experiment. There were thousands of boys out there he'd rather be with....

Joey....I need to talk to you.

Just at that moment a text came through from Daniel. My stomach tightened. No kisses, no hint of love, nothing. This was it. He was dumping me. Here I was, planning my proposal to him and he was ready to dump me. I was such an idiot.

Meet me in the park.

Again....no kisses.

I grabbed my phone and walked out the door. The whole journey I was holding on the tears. I couldn't let him see how sad I was.

As I approached he park, I noticed him stood by the pond.

Deep breathes, Joey. Deep breathes.

Maybe he wasn't going to dump me?

Keep walking.

But...why else did he want to meet me?

Keep going.

Why wouldn't he put kisses?

"Joey." Daniels eyes landed on me and he put out his arms to hug me. I didn't hug him back.

"Why did you want to meet me?" I wasn't going to sugar coat this. I wanted answers.

"I....urrrm....I don't know how to say this but-"

"You're dumping me." I bit my lip.

"What?"

"It's fine, Daniel. You don't have to explain. I understand. I was you're first boyfriend, you don't have to be with me forever." I began walking away, desperate to leave before I burst into tears.

"Joey?!" Daniel put his hand on my shoulder.

"It's fine!"I yelled, turning around to face him.

"What are you on about?" He looked so hurt and confused.

"I thought-"

"Thought what? That I got bored of you? That I went from loving you to pieces to dumping you in a friggin park. Is that how you think I am?" Daniel looked so sad... I didn't know what to say.

"No...I...." I sighed. "You didn't put kisses on your texts. I know! It's stupid......but why would you say you wanted to meet?"

"I was in a rush, Joey! That's why I didn't put friggin kisses!" He laughed.

I put my head in my hands and felt my cheeks go red.

"Hey." Daniel pulled my hands away from my face and pulled me into a hug. "You're not getting rid of me that easily."

I looked up at him, my face still red. "Why were you in a rush?"

I pulled out of the hug and he looked nervous. "I....last time I was at your house....I found this." My heart stopped when he pulled out two pieces of scrunched up paper from his pocket.

"Danny I-"

"No, Joey. Let me speak." I couldn't believe it. He had found the speech I prepared for "our wedding". I wanted the ground to swallow me up right there and then.

"At first I didn't know what to think.... I was petrified at the thought of someone wanting to marry me-"

"You don't have to-"

"Let me finish." He cut me off again. "I couldn't sleep for days. Kept thinking about the practicality of it, kept wondering why you wanted to marry me-"

"I know it's stupid.  Can we please just forget about-"

"But then. ....I realised why. I mean, for one, I'm amazing." I smiled. "And for two.....We've been through so much together, Joey. And we love each other. I knew from the moment I spoke to you that I loved you. I wasn't in love with you.....but I loved your shyness, your sassiness, your compassion." He tilted my chin so I was looking at him.

"The answer's yes, Joey." He smiled. "Let's get married."

Authors note:

I'm back!

We're coming to the end of  the story but I will be starting a new one. Also I may be posting an extra chapter today 🤔 we'll see x

Thanks for reading
Erin xx