Always Out of Reach

Telling my dad.....

Now to tell my dad. How on earth was I going to tell this to him? I mean, he couldn't force me to go to his, but, he could sure as hell make me feel guilty.

"It's gonna be so great! You can meet all my family! They all come round at christmas, sure. ...they're a little bit crazy, but they're nice.....Joey?" Daniel stopped his rambling. "You're very quiet. Are you ok?"

"Ur..ye. ye I'm fine." I  plastered a smile on my face.

"Joey?" Daniel raised his eyebrows at me.

I sighed. "Fine....I'm just worried about telling my dad....about not spending christmas with him." I looked down. "He always....has this way of making me feel guilty."

"You'll be fine Joey. You've got nothing to feel guilty about...you're just doing what makes you happy. For once, stand up to him, don't let him control you-"

"Is that what you think?" I stepped back from Daniel. "You think I let him control me-"

"Joey-"

"No." I Started walking away from him. "You're just like everyone else. Looking at me like I'm a victim, like I'm weak."

"Joey." Daniel said softly, grabbing my arm as I turned around.

"What?" I couldn't look him in the eye.

"I don't think you're weak." I said quietly.

"Well it didn't sound like that."

"Hey, look at me." He titled my chin to face him. "You are so so strong. You've been through so much....you just have to get over this last hurdle. It'll be hard to tell him but I'll come with you if you want."

I sighed. "I'm sorry." I mumbled. "I know you didn't mean that. " I put my head in my hands. "It's just so....exhausting! Trying not to annoy him all the time...."

"I know.....I know." He pulled me into a hug. "Now. Let's go tell him."

I took a deep breathe. "Ok."

***

"Urm....dad?"

"What?" He sounded annoyed as usual so that was great (!). He turned around at glared at Daniel who was standing behind me.

"Nice to see you again." Daniel said sarcastically.

"What do you want?" My dad turned to me.

"I want to talk about Christmas."

"Oh yes we've decided we're going to Venessa's mum and dad's house."

"Well. .actually-"

"No. That's what is happening, Joey. Don't be awkward."

I looked down. There is was again. Him constantly making him feel bad. Then I felt Daniels hand on his back. ...and I got the confidence.

"No. I'm not coming."

My dad stared at me, fuming. "What do you mean you're "not coming""

"I'm spending christmas at Daniel's."
I stared him dead in the eyes.

"You'd rather spend christmas with him." He pointed at Daniel. "Than you're own dad?"

I thought for a moment. "Yes."

"Get out." He said. "Get out!"

I didn't think twice. I hurried out the door.

"You did it." Daniel smiled at me.

"Ye." I let out a shaky breathe.

"Hey." He kissed my head. "Let's just enjoy christmas now. You don't need to worry about him anymore."

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