To be or not to be........a Cougar

Ch 54 .... The first time ever I....(PART 1)

Getting closer guys.......................

Jocelyn POV

Domnic's right, I do feel better. The shower even helped out with the soreness. You know how it feels when you go to the gym and you hadn't been in years. The next day you can barely move. That's how I was starting to feel, but the shower with the jets helped out a lot.   I have a feeling that I am going to have to buy a lot of epsom salt due to this vigorous man.   He has shown another side to himself this morning.   I'm not complaining, it's just interesting.   The way he played my body, it was like he was playing his favorite musical instrument.

As the images of the love making we made flashed through my head, the one thing that really sticks out is the way he always look at me.  I get goosebumps every time he looks at me with the look of pure love as if he's in awe of me.   I've never got that from anyone before.   Though I have many flaws, he seems to embrace my overly curvaceous body, actually listens to me when I talk too much about the tedious things at work and deals with my oh so overly drama filled heavy baggage that I have carried with me for years.   I am so stupid to have tried to leave a man like Domnic.   I should trust in him more than the fear I have in Marcus.   Domnic only walks away from a fight if and when I ask him to.   I should have enough faith and trust in Domnic to know that he can handle himself when it come to Marcus or anyone that dares to try to come between us.   

Coming to a decision and a declaration on my life.   As of today, November 1st, I will no longer let Marcus or anyone run me.   I will let the man I love protect me from whatever comes our way.   And if he should stumble, I will be there to help him like a wife should.   I will protect him just as he will protect me..... together.   I think that I am ready now.   Just as soon as we finish dinner, I will ask Domnic if we could go to Vegas and get married.  ASAP!!!   Besides the man above, Domnic gives me the love, strength and courage that I need on a daily basis.   I will not run and hide any longer.

I had just dried off and wrapped this huge ass towel around me and walked out to see what he was making for dinner. I love the fact that he can cook. I must thank his mother later.

Walking out, I didn't smell anything cooking and I called out for him as I started to the kitchen. "Dom, Domnic?" I called but there was no answer nor was he in the room.  Walking towards the bed, I saw a box and a  dress bag on the bed with a note.....

Jocelyn,

Though I am young, I've waited a long time for you.   For those first 3 years in college, I had fantasized about you.   You being the woman that I will one day marry.   The first time ever I saw your face, there was something in your eyes when I had accidentally bumped into you that day at the library.   I could't get those eyes out of my head.   I dreamed of your eyes for weeks until I saw you again in the music hall.   You were substituting for one of my teachers.   I closed my eyes and listened to your voice for the entire class.   When class was finished, you had dropped something and I picked it up for you and I had to know how soft your hand were so I purposely grabbed your hand as I gave you the pen.   There was a jolt of energy that went through me and when I looked up I could tell that you felt it too.  I knew then that you were the one for me. But when you noticed that I was still holding your hand you gave a sharp gasp then a light moan when I then took a hold of your arm with my other hand and started to lightly rub it with my thumb asking you if you were OK.  Between that gasp and light moan, that did something else to my body and I knew that I had to hear it again as you're breathing out my name in ecstasy.

I had refused to let anything come between us so I purposely went to my counselor and explain my situation and he told me to make sure that I didn't have any of your classes until I had all of my credits.   That way I could pursue you without causing any of us any problems.   I wanted you, but I didn't want to cause you your job.   So for 3 years, I watched you from afar and I worked hard. I patiently  waited for 3 years to come for what was soon to be mine.  

I am so thankful that you decided to give me that chance.   In so many ways, you have made my dreams come true.   I just need you to do 1 more thing for me, Thickness.   Get dressed, text me and meet me in the green house.

Love,

Domnic 

I had just folded up the letter just as the first tear fell.   Placing the letter back on the bed, I began to get dress with what he has lain out for me.   It was a beautiful off-white maxi dress with matching jewelry and shoes.   I knew that he had style but dam.   This was gorgeous.   He must have planned a beautiful evening for us in the garden.

After I finished getting dressed, I text Domnic.....

Jocelyn:      This dress is beautiful and it fits perfect.   I'm on my way.

Domnic:      I can't wait to see you.....I love you.

When I opened the door, I heard some music lightly playing.   It was one of my favorites.  It's the song that Edward played for Bella on Twilight.....its beautiful.  It sounded like it was coming from the green house.   As I got closer, I noticed that the rooftop was decorated so beautifully.   Awe, when did he have time to do this?   As I turned the corner to the door of the green house, I saw my mother was there waiting for me.   "Mom, what's going on?   What are you doing here?   Where's Domnic?" I asked as I was starting to worry that maybe something would have happened while I was in the shower and getting dressed.   "Nothing's  wrong dear.   Everything is finally just right.   Domnic is inside waiting for you.   I just want to take you to him.   So stop with all the questions and take my hand dear." she said as tears started to pool in her eyes.   I did what she asked and took her hand.  She knocked on the door twice and the music stopped........... 

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I haven't had a cliff hanger in a minute!!!!!!!!!!!!

For those who can and would like to, you should listen to the attached song that was playing when she first walked out of the room till the garden house door opened.   It's the song that Edward played for Bella on Twilight.....its beautiful.

If you cant get to the video of the song, comment me and I will walk you through it....

SMOOCHES~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~