To be or not to be........a Cougar

Ch 46 .... If looks could kill

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Jocelyn POV


When Domnic closed the door and started singing, I knew he wasn't about to let me out this room without satisfying the hunger and lust that's in his eyes and voice. When I tried to unwrap myself from him, he just held onto me tighter, saying, "If I were you, I wouldn't do that. I haven't been home in a while......if you know what I mean. I suggest that you just relax, and relate so we both can release some of this tension that's been building."




Domnic POV



"This is our little get away. It is a private music room. Since we both love music, I thought that you might like a sound proof music room just for the 2 of us with a view of the city." I said as she looked around. As we walked further in, she looked around to see that this room has everything that we would need for when we need to get a few moments alone. It was basically a little hotel with a dinette that also had a hot tub and a shower. I also made sure that everything was stocked, especially with clothes for the both of us, just in case.

After I carried her to each area of our hide-away, I slowly slid her down to her feet right in front of the bed. I asked her if she was hungry but she just nodded, no. "Domnic...baby we shouldn't be here like this. What if Alex realizes that she is with L.D. instead of you? Or, what if Marcus finds out that you guys switched places and we are together? I don't know why he wants me back, but he is serious about getting me back. I can handle what he does to me, but I couldn't live with myself if......" I kissed her to stop her from all the what if's and all. Then as she was distracted, I unzipped her dress from the back and let it pool to the floor. There, stood in front of me was my thick goddess. The woman that I love and has waited years to show her how much I love her. I am not about to let any man come in between me and what's mine. Not again.....

When the dress fell, my eyes darted down and I noticed that she was wearing a black lacy see through bra and thong set that matched the garters and thigh highs that hugged her thighs the way I wanted to. As I looked over her body. I noticed a scar above her navel that wasn't there the last time we made love. When I looked a little higher, I noticed a bruise that looked a couple of weeks old and that wasn't there the last time either. She started to tremble and then the fog of lust started to clear.

Something was telling me that something happened, recently and when I find out, I'm not gonna like it. I looked directly into her eyes and saw fear. It was either fear of what happened or if it was fear of me knowing what had happened. "Tell me what happened.....and don't leave out a single detail...."



Jocelyn POV


I couldn't help it. My body started to tremble just thinking about what Marcus did to me a couple weeks ago on the night of Domnic's accident. If Domnic ever found out, he might never forgive me. I didn't know that Marcus would be waiting for me when I came back from hospital to my parents house.


Flashback...............



I just finished drying my tears for the third time since I left the hospital. I didn't want to do it, but I had to. If I didn't break up with Domnic, then Marcus would eventually kill him. I wont let that happen so I broke up with him. I didn't even have the chance to tell Domnic that I think that I was pregnant. I wasn't for sure, but I haven't been feeling like myself for the past couple of days. Maybe it's due to all of the stress that Marcus is putting me through lately.

Walking up to my parents house, I barely opened the door when I suddenly felt queasy. Running to the guest room in the hall, I opened the door and ran straight to the adjoining bathroom. As soon as the lid was up, I threw up like it was no ones business. By the time I had finished that, I went to the sink and rinsed out my mouth. I did a double take at the sink when I had noticed a toothbrush in the holder. Placing my hand on the doorknob, the door was yanked wide open. Stepping back a few steps, being startled and all, Marcus reaches in and grabs my arm and twists it as he yanks me into the room. I should have known that my father would put Marcus up while he was in town. Why didn't I think of it though?

Thank goodness that it was way past the time that my parents went to bed. I thought that if I can just make it through whatever he has planned for me now, then I should be OK. Trying not to scream as he yanks me into the room, he twists my arm even harder. What is he doing, trying to break my freaking arm? I thought as I tried to pull away from him. Maybe if I could just calm him down, then maybe this won't be so bad.

He twirls me around and yanks me to his chest with my arm behind my back. "I'm gonna ask you 1 fucking time and you better fucking answer me, bitch." he says with a growl in my ear. "Are you.........mother......fucking........ pregnant?" "I'm not sure." was all I could say. The look in his eyes said it all before he actually said it. "No man will plant their seed in this pussy but me!" he screams as he slaps me so hard, I knew that there will be a bruise when and if I wake up from tonight's beating. He then slams me into the wall. I had just turned my face in time for it not to be slammed up against the wall itself but my chest and my stomach hit it very hard.

Before I knew what was going on, Marcus turns me around, places his left hand over my mouth and punches me in the stomach over and over and over while saying, "To hell with paying for an abortion when I can take care of it myself. I always wondered why you didn't tell your parents the truth about our divorce. Why is your father so hell bent on his little girl being married into a proper family. I know that you were a virgin when I got to you. Did your Daddy catch you doing other favors with some punks? Why did your father talk my father into making me marry you? I had my eyes set on something other than what I was forced into marrying. And there you were thinking that we were high school sweet hearts and shit. Bitch please. Well, at least I got to pound your shit whenever and wherever I had wanted back in school and all through college. Until your fat ass got pregnant. But your weak ass lost my child when your stupid ass walked in on me fucking that bitches brains out in your bed. I should've known that since you couldn't handle this dick in bed that you couldn't handle watching me fuck another bitch. But that was a long time ago, huh baby? Now we are gonna take care of your little problem and when I'm through, I am gonna fuck the shit out of you until you scream my name like you used to. Do you think that your young as eye-candy will want you once he finds out that you lost his baby but was consoled by your ex husband. He'll never want you once he finds out about us. And if you tell anyone about out how I helped you with your little abortion, I will kill everything that you love. Starting with Domnic down to your over protective mammy."

As he finishes up on his beatings and ranting, I looked up and saw my mother standing in the door with pure fear in her eyes. With Marcus paying more attention on beating me and then hitching me up higher on the wall as he pulls up my skirt and wrapping my legs around him, he didn't notice that my mother had walked up and was watching what he was doing to me. I tried to get her attention without him noticing. When she finally looked into my tear filled eyes, I mouthed for her to call the police. She bolted out right before he pulled out his favorite toy and cut me right above my navel, saying, "I've changed my mind about raping you tonight but this is just a reminder of what not to say when you run off to the hospital to get cleaned out before that bastard sets up infection in you."

He dropped me on the floor and leaves the house right before my mother makes it back to me, demanding and begging for answers. I told her the whole story from beginning to the end and then made her promise not to say anything in fear of what he would do to her and Domnic. Right after she finally promised, the cops, an ambulance and a groggy father shows up to only hear of an masked intruder trying to break in and tried to rape me when my mother showed up and called the cops.

My mother stayed by my side the entire night and waited for the results of my official miscarriage due to the beating from the intruder. Once again, I lost another child because of Marcus. And once again, I can't say anything because of the threats. I fear that if Domnic ever finds out about tonight, Marcus just might get what he deserves and wants all at the same time. With me broken and without Domnic, because knowing him, he will be in prison for murdering Marcus. So once again, I have to keep quiet.


End of flashback........



Before I realized it, my flashback was no longer a flashback. I had actually told Domnic of everything that had happened after I had left him at the hospital. And the look on his face was something that I will never get out of my head. The look of a parent that has lost their child, then the murderous look of killing that person that has taking your child away from you. Add hurting the woman that was carrying his child to that... Another version of...... If looks could kill!









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