To be or not to be........a Cougar

Ch 23 ....Convince me

Jocelyn' POV

Did he just say what I think he just said? I did not see that one coming. Why do he look so sad when he asked me that? There has to be more to this. I have to know everything before I ask the man that I have fallen in love with to leave. "Before I answer you Domnic, I need you to explain what's going on with you. Since we've only met 3 years ago and only been together for what, 2 and half months. Convince me to say yes."

Domnic's POV

Convince her? How can I convince her to marry me when I don't want her to get involved or possibly hurt in my dad's shit? But if she marries me, I would be able to take on the world as long as I had her love. When I spoke to mama about Jocelyn, she told me that I would probably have to bare my soul to her and be an open book to Jocelyn. So......here goes.

"I have seriously never met a woman like you. How does a man tell the woman that he's falling in love with, that all because of one stupid, drunken, poker night, your stupid ass father and his stupid ass business partner made a stupid ass deal? A stupid ass deal that brought their children into it without their permission. A stupid ass deal that is somehow mother fuckin legal. I tried my best to get out of it. But I am mother fuckin legally bound to it. I still don't agree with the judge on that one. I don't want to marry my father's business partner's daughter, Alexandria. It's something about her that screams evil. How can I tell you that I need to be married to someone that I trully love before I am 25? Within the next few months at that. I would have to be married by New Year's Eve. By this New Years Eve Jocelyn!!! And that my future bride needs to be pregnant with my child within 1 month after the wedding. Which is stupid too, don't you think!?! How can I ask you of that one? I know about your miscarriage and you probably don't want that with me. Though I would love to have a little Jocelyn running around. And how can I tell you, that in order to save my father's stupid ass company, that's been in the family for the past 30 years, that I would have to be married before I turn 25, hopefully, to the woman of my life. If not, then I would have to marry my father's business partner's daughter, who I can not stand. All because Mr. Smithers can't be a stupid fucking ass Co CEO of the firm. He would settle for his daughter to marry me for the inheritance that my grand father left me. I could care less about it, but it would be great to be able to take care of my family and to have a legacy to pass on to my children. But I didn't ask to be rushed into all of this at such a young age. I know that you said that you would say yes to whatever I asked of you but this is too much. When I first saw you years ago, I fell in love. There was this look in your eyes that was so sad, that I wanted to take away all your pain. I wanted to put a smile on that gorgeous face. I know that this sounds stalkerish and all but I didn't and still don't want to drag you into this crazy shit, so I just watched you for the past 3 and half years. During that time, I fell for you. Hard.... Last semester, I knew that this would be a risk, but I had to give it a try. I had to know what it would be like to be in love with you. To have long conversations with you. To hold you in my arms. To kiss you goodnight. To know what it feels like to be loved by you. To know if I could put a smile on that face. And when you smile, you make me smile. And when you sigh, you make my sigh. When you moan because of me, I don't wanna stop. And when you call out my name, I cry on the inside because I feel like I will never hear it again if and when I ask you to marry me."

Jocelyn listened to everything that flowed out my heart and mouth. I have become that open book that mama told me to be. Now I wait for her answer. She looks at me with a new look. I've never seen that look before. I'm scared again. A 24 year old scared man. How sad is that. When she walked up to me, places a finger on my lips to stop me from talking further. "Now it's my turn to ask. Domnic Sanders, will you make love to your future wife?" she says. I stood for a moment processing what she just said, then I fell to my knees right in front of her. Wrapping my arms around her thighs and placing my forehead on her stomach, I cried. She's saying yes......... I looked down and saw the remote to her iPod and pressed play. I knew that this song was gonna be one of my favorites one day..........'Straight Fucking' by Charles 'Gator' Moore was playin. And we did exactly that.............

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