Chapter 27: Sharing pain

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jongin sat there in shock when he heard those words leave the youngers mouth .. how could he have not known about this ?
how .. could.. why ?..

he felt close to breaking down because it was just too much for him .. it was all to.much at once .
he didnt understand anything anymore. why was that all happening chanyeol was like a best friend to.him. hearing the secret side of him was .. painful .

he turned away from his thoughts when he heard a melody being played . he looked up at kyungsoo ,who had also fat tears in his eyes and jongin knew it was probably even harder for him to talk about it than for jongin to listen to it

it was only a melodie but then he started singing. reminding jongin of the angelic voice the younger had .

sing me to sleep

he hesitated as he taped onto the piano titles. continuing taking painfuly breaks between them .

sing me- to-sleep ..



i'm tired ..  a-and i

he sniffed

i-want-to-go-to-be-d .

swollowing at the pain he continued not caring if any tears left his eyes .


sing me- to-sleep .

sing me- to-sleep



and-then lea-ve .. me alo~ne

he cried ..closing his eyes and jongin let him continue .even tho it broke his heart . he wanted kyungsoo to share his pain and jongin was ready to be the one he shared it with .

dont-try~. to-wake-me-

in-the-morni-ng





c-cause .. i will be-go-ne .





dont feel bad for-me-

i want you to- kno-w .


dee-p-i-n-the-ce-ll .. o-f-my-hea-rt



i fee-l so-gla~d ..

to-go-



sing me- to-sleep

sing me- to-sleep




i-do-nt wa~nt-to wake-up anymo~re





sing to me~..


sing t-to me~



dont-feel

b-bad for-me .


i-wa~nt you to-know



dee-p-in-the-ce-ll of my-hea-rt

i-rea~ly wa~nt

to-go

there-is-another .wo~rld .

there-is-a-better. wo~rld

there~


must..

be..
















his hands left the piano and coverd his face instead .
jongin knew kyungsoo was done . he had released his pain and was now ready to share it . he hugged the smaller tight in his chest and let him cry .

,, they r-raped me everyday " kyungsoo cried frustated ,, it hurt  jongin it hurt so much , .. i felt so used....  fuck "he cursed sobbing

,, shh . its ok .." jongin was fighting hard against his own anger and sadness in order to comfort the younger

,, i hate it i hate them .. i hate me"

,, shh . dont say that baby please. dont hate yourself .. i wont let you" he whisperd and placed a kiss on the smallers head .
he realy hoped this pain this shit would finally go away .
all they wanted to be was happy

together .




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later that day kyungsoo was too exhausted to move after all that happened . so jongin carried him in brydal style back to the hospital . telling him to sleep and that it was ok . but the younger as thick headed as he was .didnt .

eventually they reached the hospital and jongin brought him back into his bed covering him in the blankets and kissing his forehead as he fell slowly asleep .

after that,  he only had to argue with a few doctors about leaving with kyungsoo without saying anything and shit .

but realy jongin wasnt even paying attension to their scolding
and instead let them talk so he could soon go back to kyungsoo and be there in case he had another nightmare or woke up lonely .

























































ya ya i know i changed a few lyrics but i just felt like it would make more sense if i left a word out or didnt write the full lyrics down .. sorry .btw i'm having problems with uploading media
the song i used is from emily browing soundtrack of suckerpunch ."sing me to sleep"

https://youtu.be/S7jY0fhekRo

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