His 'meant to be' (Kaisoo)

Chapter 49 : Complicated

warning ?:
this part is a little confusinf so feel free to ask me if you didnt understand

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black , thats what he saw as always but now it somehow turned brighter and brighter and finally he could see something

a hand it was all blurry but he could see a hand he could feel a hand traveling up his tigh
,,think of what we could do "
c-chanyeol? no no it was one of those fucking mightmares again .

he started struggling squeezing his eyes again as he felt the hand travel up too far .
,, s-stop "

,,sh sh .. be a good boy " he felt a shifting on the bed before something warm touched his entrance .
,,no no " he whisperd broken feeling the tears already overfilling his eyes as he struggled again . he knew that it was a nightmare but it felt so real and at the moment he had nothing else mind than to get away . he didnt want to feel that again .

he tried to push his legs together and pull them up to get away . he tried to turn away struggling around with his hands that felt so tyed to the bed, until he suddendly felt warm hands cupping his face
,, no ! .. no "

,, soo calm down .. kyungsoo" he panted opening his eyes again trying to look around this time it was all black again . that didnt mean he felt better tho .he was still scared and uncomfortable . thats until he heard his voice.

,,soo ," jongin .. jongin

he felt jongins hands on his cheeks .he noticed that he was slightly curled up into a ball
,, it was just a dream calm down "

he only took a ragged breath searching with his hands for jongin, swinging his arms around his stomach as soon as he found him.
,,i thought they had fucking stoped " he spoke as jongin stroke over his head .hugging him back.

,,its ok "

,, no .. i cant keep having those whenever it gets mentioned i dont want to be that weak" he sniffed aggressivly removing the tears.

,, you're not weak stop saying that"

,, no you stop saying that i am not i know i am i'm not stupid its fucking annoying to wake up you up because of this stupid shit every-"
,, kyungsoo, the only thing thats annoying is that you keep beating yourself up while you're not even listening to me and didnt we try to curse less ?"  he knew jongin was smirking as the taller inhaled his cent resting his chin on his head .

,, why on earth would we stop cursing ?"he mutterd kinda accepting to the others offer of changing the topic

,, because its not good for youre anger "

the smaller started laughing at that and jongin just rolles his eyes.
,, who the hell told you that now?" he backed away from the hug still smiling ,, suho ?"

,, no .." he sighed ,, yes "

,, so cursing is not good for my anger ? what is good for it then ? going outside and beat up a stranger ? or draw some mandalas wich they sell for grown up ..wich i wont do so suho the policeguy
is basically telling me that its better to beat a stranger than to curse .. oh wow "

,, well to be exact .. he told me that" he corrected because he didnt know what else to say .
and kyungsoo giggled again. backing away from the hug .
,, i love suho " he whiped a fake tear away .

,, excuse me ?" he cleard his throat .
,, i mean .. my love for him is nothing compared to my love for you " he spoke dramatically .

,, oh now you're also making fun of me? "