His 'meant to be' (Kaisoo)

Chapter 40 : knock knock

severel more weeks have past .
kris would notice how his brothers bed is empty at nights or the quiet whispers coming from his room at late houres .he didnt understand  much tho .he only heard some sobs sometimes or giggles . he figured that jongin and kyungsoo must be pretty close now .it was pretty obivous that they were too close but kris doesnt want to believe that they are acually together-together. it just couldnt be they hated each other so much .that just cant be .. and jongin had a girlfriend and kyungsoo had a girlcrush so they arent gay ..
but then again he had been in a coma for fucking long so they had enough time to grow closer .. but
but no .

somedays he realy had to battle with himself to not rush inside and tear them apart or even beat that idiot up . but he somehow secretly hoped kyungsoo would talk to him about that himself .after all he agreed on letting them in soon so they could all talk .

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,, are you sure you want to do this ?" jongin looked over her sceptical .

she nodded looking into the mirror .

,, but they've grown so long "

,, i know " she sighed looking at the razor ,, i want you to do it suho " looking at him she handed him the razor and he took it unsure .

,, i've never done this before i dont know"

,, you cant do much wrong you just need to remove all my hair .. what could go wrong " she chuckled and showed him her back but he still glanced at her in the refelction .before she gave him a nodd .

he released a breath and started.

,, can i do the other half " jongin exitendly stood up as suho pulled the first line down .

releasing a soft laugh she nodded and jongin grabbed another razor  spraying more shaving cream onto her head and he also drew a few lines.
he laughed after some time nudging his friend besides him to see what he created .

,, look i made a little k "

,, yah ! stop drawing youre name on my head ! " she complained .

,, its not my name .. it stands for kyungsoo " he laughed but her fist on his tigh made him shutup again .

,, i dont need the letter of youre lover on my head either !"  her voice got louder
and he flinched slightly as suho just rolled his eyes
,, ok ok calm down .." he removed the k and shaved more off . ,, why do you want to remove youre hair again anyway ?"

she hesitated with her answer swollowing before she opened her mouth ,, i ..i kinda keep thinking about luze and .. i dont know i kinda miss her but at the same time i dont .like sometimes i wonder what it would be like if she was here with me but then at other times i'm glad she isnt .. does that make sense ? .. "

,, only you can know that " jongin shared eyecontact with her in the mirror

,, but what does that have to do with youre hair ?" suho also asked cleaning the razor a bit before he continued .

,, the longer my hair got .the longer i thought of the old me ..before i got these desease and kidnapped and shit and i feel like balled freak is now the new me besides they will fall out sooner or later again anyway"
[i forgot that i wrote that it was a desease but i didnt want to delete that part so i kinda tried to come upw ith an excuse dont even ask ]

,, you're not a freak " the policeman comforted locking eyes with her in the mirror ,, you're beautiful either way anyway "

she blushed slightly and he smiled.