Deals With The Devil (Chris MotionlessXreader)

You Don't Know A God Damn Thing

Chris returned a few minutes later with a small basket and black hood over his shoulders. I was sitting on my bed and letting the rumble in my stomach ring in my ears. 'I got you a hood so you can come with me on my jobs. Did you want a shower?' Chris placed the basket beside his feet and slipped off the midnight black cape as my eyes darted towards him.
'Yes...'
I couldn't tell you what I was thinking, only what that thinking led to.
I lifted myself off my bed and dragged my feet towards him, my bones suddenly feeling hollow and unstable. I let my tongue run over my fangs as Chris slid the dark, hooded cape around my shoulders and cupped my cheek to look at me. 'Gorgeous. Now, would you like me to escort you?'
'Yes.'
I didn't realise how precious my humanity was.

Chris stepped close to me as we both made our way to the showers which, as always, weren't being used. Most of the girls who "worked" at the circus seemed to sleep at night meaning I was free to do as I please. I was shoeless, my shorts and t-shirt were drenched in sweat but I didn't even notice. I was too busy thinking about Chris. I was thinking about sticking my teeth in his throat and draining him of all his blood. Chris loved me and would die for me but I couldn't hurt him. I wanted to but just couldn't. '(Y/n)! There you are!' I herd Ricky's voice call from behind me. As I turned, I could see Ryan and Josh  hurrying along-side the shorter male. They all rushed towards me, happy smiles plastered on their faces. 'Josh said that...' Ricky trailed off, looking into my eyes. 'You bastard, Chris...You bastard! What did you do to her?' Ricky suddenly shouted and stepped forward, taking and scrunching Chris's collar up in his fist.
'I turned her. Now leave us be.'
'You can't fucking do that! You've ruined her!' He retaliated and suddenly gripped my wrist with his other hand. I said nothing. 'What have you done?'
'I gave her what she wanted.'
'It doesn't matter if she wants it or not! She was human, she didn't know what she wanted! She was the only nice fucking person here and you just- just! You just killed her!' Ricky suddenly yanked me away from Chris and shoved me towards Josh who was silently observing the argument. I almost tripped due to his unrelenting strength but, to my surprise, I managed to keep myself on my feet.
'Ricky's right, Chris...Turning (Y/n) was wrong...' Ryan stepped forward and calmly placed his hand on Chris shoulder as if he was comforting him. 'However, we can't change her back. It's too late now. The best we can do is get used to it.'
'Get used to a fucking vampire running around here? How can we do that? She's completely alone now! She's the only vampire here!' Ricky continued to scream at Chris and Ryan as I flicked my black hood over my head and slipped away from the four men.
Little did I know, Josh was creeping behind me with a small frown on his beautiful face. 'Where're you going?' He asked.
'I don't know. I'm just hungry and Chris is too busy being a culprit to feed me.'
'Oh...did you, uh...' Josh trailed off. I turned around and let my eyes widen as he slipped the neck of his shirt down, revealing his neck and shoulder to me. 'I don't mind, just don't take too much.'
'I couldn't...it'll hurt.'
'Well...yeah but you're a vampire now. You need it. Really, I don't mind. Take whatever you need.' Josh gently smiled at me as my red eyes glided over the crook of his neck. My heartbeat began to skyrocket but against my mind and souls wishes, I couldn't do it. I shook my head and turned back around, quietly whipping the hood over my head.
'I can't, Josh I...I'm not like that. I can't hurt anybody.'
'You have no choice, (Y/n)... This is the life you've chosen and you have to go through with it. There's no turning back, trust me. You can scream and cry to be human again but no god will grant you that relief.'
'I don't want to be human, Josh! I just don't want to hurt anyone!' I snapped and spun around. My cape whizzed behind me as I clenched my fists and continued to shout as if Josh cared. 'I'm not like the rest of you! I'm not trapped here! I'm not a murderer! The only thing I have in common with you is that we're both freaks!'
'You are trapped here! You're not special! You're not some sort of saviour to us so stop talking like you are! You are just a little child who wanted to play with the older kids and that's what you've gotten! Stop acting like a child and accept what you've done to yourself! You think you know pain? You don't know a god damn thing about this world and the only thing that's kept you alive these few months has been us!' Josh finally snapped and began screaming at me like I had never imagined. Josh was always so calm and happy yet at that moment he scared me. Josh had never scared me.
'I-I...I could survive on my own...' I murmured. Josh took a deep breath and regained himself before replying to my obvious lie.
'We both know that isn't true. (Y/n), just drink my blood. You wanted this life and you got it. Now bite me.'
'Josh I don't-'
'Bite me!'
'I can't!' I screamed and let myself fall to my knees. Tears quickly began to spill from my deathly eyes as I reached down and gripped the grass that I was crying onto. 'I can't hurt you again! I deserve this pain! I've thrown away everything from my human life just to feel good about myself when all I did was hurt you! I didn't know you cared! I didn't think anyone could care about me!' Josh began to step towards me as I  sobbed and whimpered. My body had already died and resurrected but now it was my minds turn to be deconstructed. I couldn't think straight, especially after Josh lifted his leg and slammed it into my back, making me fall and lay completely on the grass.
'I pity you. You've lost my respect. I cannot care for somebody who willingly gave up their humanity. I had it ripped away from me and you act like that is some sort of privilege.' A caught a quick glance at Josh's heel before it rammed into the side of my head sending more pain throughout my body. 'I gave you a chance to prove to me you were still sane!' He slammed his foot down on the back of my head, forcing me to eat dirt. 'You could've taken my blood and proved to me you understood survival but no! Now you're just a fucking whore!' I just laid there, my body throbbing intensely as Josh kicked me to Valhalla. It wasn't until I remembered the word "whore" that I shot up, my lip split and nose bloody. Josh watched me get to my feet and barely flinched as I bared my fangs and gripped his shoulders suddenly. I wasn't myself anymore. My instincts took over and before I could blink Josh had tears in his eyes and my fangs in his neck. I slurped hungrily on his pouring blood which flowed so rapidly it leaked from the tiny gap between my lips and his swollen skin. He was trembling, breathing ragged and fear dripping from his voice. 'I-I'm...s-sorry I...j-just wanted...to p-push you...o-over...the edge.' I moaned at the sweet feeling of his cold blood leak down my throat and send chills throughout my body. My tongue grazed over the edges of the puncture wounds in his neck I was still drinking from while Josh's knees began to grow weak and clack together. I didn't retract my fangs, not yet. A voice in my mind kept telling me that he deserved the pain but the rational side of my mind begged me to stop. 'D-D...Do y...you want...m...me...dead?' He wheezed as his skin grew pale and he began to lose balance. Before I could come to my senses, his legs gave out and he fainted onto the cold ground.
'I don't know, Josh...I certainly don't want you to take control of me again. Maybe killing you would be a good option.'

'On the bright side he isn't dead. (Y/n) barely harmed him, actually it was just the mix of needing to change and the loss of blood being too much for him. As for you, (Y/n), your nose may be a bit bruised for a few days. In the meantime you rest and I'll go scold Josh for pressing your buttons like that.' Ryan nodded a farewell to me and Chris before stepping out of my tent. Chris sat beside me as I let out a deep sigh and ran my fingers through my oily hair.
'Being immortal is more difficult than I thought.'
'Yes, it is isn't it? I'm quite surprised, (Y/n). You handled Josh quite well. I have no clue what got into him though but I'll make sure to put him in a cone when he recovers. But the most important thing is that you're okay.' Chris laid his hand on my shoulder comfortingly but I shrugged it off and just stared down at the ground. I was thinking about everything that Josh said and wondering what was going on in his head. He was usually so happy. '(Y/n), don't shrug me off like that.' There was a distinct anger in his tone that sent a tingle into my chest. He viciously gripped my jaw and forced me to look up into his pained eyes. Something was different about him from when we met. He had become soft and I didn't like it anymore. Now that I had changed, I expected him to change too.
'I like it when you act this way...It suits you.' I accidentally let my voice crack slightly under his deadly gaze. He ran his tongue over his bottom lip and tightened his grip on my jaw to the point where I couldn't move at all. He pressed his lips to mine, wasting no time and parting my lips for me. I didn't even think, just letting him use me like I wanted him to. His free hand roamed my torso expertly, softly pressing and massaging different bits of flesh. I suddenly pulled away from him, the lack of air not making itself known until I was about to pass out
'Such a gorgeous body you have, (Y/n)...May I see it? Feel it?' Chris leaned down letting his lips grace mine once more.
'O-Okay...'