He will never love me (Ziall)(BoyxBoy)

the almost reunion

its the day of the concert, i bought my tickets, they are right up front. i turn on my phone and check the messages i see on message from nialler

nialler

harry plz help me i need you, i read through zayns phone and i saw a suicide note, harry i am scared. plz don't ignore me. where ever you are harry plz just drop everything and come back we all need you. i need you zayn needs you liam needs you even louis needs you plz hazza-bear the love of my life is going to kill himself and its all my fault

hazza

niall you will see me soon enough, plz just be strong. i love you nialler but i will not talk to louis i don't want to see him let alone talk to that asshole

nialler

harry josh broke up with him!!

hazza

does it look like i give a fuck.

nialler

stop being an asshole. he needs you, he loves you..

hazza

yah and i didnt love him when he kept on fucking leading me on.

nialler

stop it harry stop being self-centered we need you as a group

hazza

no one needs me niall, tell zayn i am not coming tonight, i can't look into his eyes and lie that i am coming back for good. i am sorry

nialler

plz harry, your the only reason why he hasn't killed himself

hazza

fine niall but i am not talking to that asshole...

nialler

fine!

hazza

ill see you later nialler

i start bawling my eyes out and i clench my fist, i pull out my good old friend mr razor and i slide it across my wrist slowly, i wince in pain but it's always fake pain, i don't feel pain anymore i am numb and broken. i watch the blood drip down my wrist and i put my headphones on and put my music on shuffle, and the song that comes on makes all the sadness and feeling come back i start singing

I'm broken, do you hear me?

I'm blinded, 'cause you are everything I see,

I'm dancin' alone, I'm praying,

That your heart will just turn around,

And as I walk up to your door,

My head turns to face the floor,

'Cause I can't look you in the eyes and say,

When he opens his arms and holds you close tonight,

It just won't feel right,

'Cause I can love you more than this, yeah,

When he lays you down,

I might just die inside,

It just don't feel right,

'Cause I can love you more than this,

Can love you more than this

If I'm louder, would you see me?

Would you lay down

In my arms and rescue me?