He will never love me (Ziall)(BoyxBoy)

admission of love and the final goodbye

NIALLER'S P.O.V

" zayn i have to talk to you" i say crying

" niall whats up" he says smiling

" i know what you were going to do tonight and i swear to god if you try to kill yourself i will never forgive you, and i know about you and liam and i just want to say that i am fine with the two of you being together, plz just try to keep it private between the two of you. i don't need to see it" i say with tears slipping down my cheek

i try to walk away so he doesn't see me fall apart but zayn grabs my hand and pulls me into a hug.

"niall pls don't leave" he says in a broken tone

i pull away from zayn's grip, the tears start rushing down my face and i run into louis, he pulls me into a hug and he makes me feel better

he says " niall do you still love zayn? would you die for him?would you give up all the fame for him?"

i say crying " of course i do louis you have no idea do you love harry still?

louis starts crying and he sobs out " of course nialler i still love him with all my fucking heart, i never stopped loving him ever since he left he broke me ni but i fucking love him and i always will you don't get that nialler.

HAZZA'S P.O.V

what happened to me, where am i. i am so confused why am i in the hospital, i remember seeing zayn and niall and liam but no louis

i can hear crying outside the door and i listen

i hear louis say " niall do you still love zayn? would you die for him?would you give up all the fame for him?"

then nialler says " of course i do louis you have no idea do you love harry still?

my heart skips a beat and then it drops i want him to say yes but at the same time i don't

he says " of course nialler i still love him with all my fucking heart, i never stopped loving him ever since he left he broke me ni but i fucking love him and i always will you don't get that nialler."

all of the feeling come back and i start crying and all of a sudden i hear the door open and nialler and lou come in the room and start hugging me. i hug them back and i give nialler a kiss on the cheek and i whisper to him " can you give me some alone time with louis" he shakes his head and leaves the room

i look into louis bright blue eyes but when i see them all they are is a dull bluish-grey" did i really cause louis this much pain did i make his carefree spirit break, is it really all my fault"

" harry plz don't blame yourself its mostly my fault. i should have been there for you. harry i love you!! plz don't ever leave me you are my everything you are my life and you always will be, harry will you be my boyfriend??" he says tears streaming down his face

i look down in shame " no louis i am sorry" i start crying " i love you louis but i am just not good enough for you, i don't deserve you, i am worthless and i don't deserve to live anymore. i am sorry but after this i am leaving again, this life just became to much for me. i can't take the fame anymore"

i kiss his lips softly and i say " lou they are letting me go, well this is it, i am going home. tell niall and zayn and liam i couldn't stay anymore, tell zayn to get his head out of his ass and get niall back, liam still has danielle and they both deserve each other. they need to fix themselves and lou i hope you and josh are both happy together he is perfect for you and he really loves you, i ccan see it in his eyes"

i put my clothes on and i walk out of the door, i blow a kiss to louis and i wave goodbye. not only to him but to my life as harry edward styles ⅕ of the band one direction