He will never love me (Ziall)(BoyxBoy)

we did all we could ( PLEASE DON'T KILL ME

Demi's P.O.V

I am so stupid I should have brought the razor blade with me. I was sooo worried I forgot about it. this is all my fault Niall doesn't deserve a friend like me. I am on the way to the hospital and the douchebag medick won't let me text the boys. I mean seriously I need to tell them. Dod how fucking far is the hospital from here. Its been like 20 minutes. Fucking god could they go any slower. Finally we come to a stop and they take Niall out and tell me to sit in the waiting room

I pull out my phone and text the boys

" Liam you need to get to the hospital niall tried it again bring Josh if you want"

" Louis get to the hospital niall cut again i am so so sorry"

" Harry get your cheeky ass here. "

" Zayn please come to the hospital niall is going to need you... he cut again

I put my phone down and i get a response its from liam

" I am getting dressed and i am on my way and why would i need Josh"

I respond back

" You are going to need someone to hold you"

I don't get a response from him so i am probably guessing he is driving

Lou and Haz text me at the same

" Demi me and Hazza are on our way"

" Demi do you know why he did it"

I text them both the same thing

" Okay and i think that is something i need to tell you in person"

I wait fifteen minutes for Zayn to respond and no answer

I keep waiting and the doctor comes out to me and tells me something that breaks my heart

" He is on suicide watch because of all of the attempts he has made on his life and in five days he will be sent to a facility that will help him get better. I don't know how long he will be there for but we will keep you updated"

After the doctors leave the boys walk in and ask me what the doctor was talking to me about.. i hesitate... i really don't think its the best time for it but i have to tell them

" Umm i really don't know how else to say this but he is on suicide watch... and in a few days he will be transferred to a facility that helps people that are suicidal.... they said that he could be there for a while but the aren't completely sure"

The boys faces change and i see the pain and guilt in their eyes... then i hear a voice say

" What did the fag do this time"?

We all turn to see Zayn with Perrie and them sucking each others face my blood boils and i am about to go after that slut but i feel an arm around me its Liam and he says " i got this"

Liams P.O.V

I can't believe that asshole said that i mean really... and he has that slut with him.... i say

" Zayn can i speak to you outside without that" pointing at the slut

She scoffs and Zayn lets go of her hand and we walk outside.

" What the fuck do you think you are doing you are back with that slut.. i thought she cheated on you... i thought she ended things with you"

" She did Li but i still love her... my feelings for her are still there..."

" What about your boyfriend the one that is in the fucking god damn hospital the one that need you the one that loves you the one that might be sent away for a few months" i say looking down at the ground and i look up and i see Zayn's face change.

" W..what do you mean liam.."? Zayn says with guilt on his face

" He is on suicide watch Z they are going to have a guard with him 24/7... and in a few days they are going to be sending him away to a facility... he might be there for a month or even more" i say holding in tears

" Liam i don't think i have feelings for him anymore" he says crying

" Whatever Zayn" i say looking pissed off

I walk back into the hospital and Zayn follows

Zayns P.O.V

I really don't have feelings for Niall anymore he is just a friend... and thats all he ever will be... i follow Liam back into the hotel and then we all go into Niall's room.. he is awake and i can see his face change from sad to broken as soon as he sees Perrie holding me.... it hurts me to hurt him but i really don't love him anymore.. i look at my beautiful girlfriend and in that moment no one else matters... she leans in for a kiss and i peck her lips quickly and i hear a beeping and then Nialls eyes closing... fuck i did this... the doctors come in and one of the nurses escort us out of the room...

We are sitting in the waiting room for about thirty minutes and the doctors come in and their faces look sad... no it can't be... i couldn't have done this to him one of them comes up to us and he says

" I am sorry... we did all... " i don't hear anything else because i run out of the hospital in tears... i killed my best friend... my closest friend... the person that i loved and at one point could have married... i hear someone scream my name.... its Liam " Zayn come back you need to hear what they have to say"

" Liam he is dead" i say crying

PLEASE DON'T KILL ME I DIDN'T WANT TO KILL MY NIALLER BUT I FELT THAT IT WAS NECESSARY...... YOU ARE ALL AMAZING SO PLEASE DON'T MURDER ME IN MY SLEEP